I that it was only my fear of rejection that was making me feel like this
I realized that I was also because the guys I've been interested in before didn't really care about me
They'd leave me on open or guilt trip me or live bomb me
Tell me I'm the prettiest girl they know
Made me feel like they loved me and would do anything for me
But when the words that they said we're tested
They always fell short
And now that I'm in an amazing relationship
I expect him to be like them
But he's not
So what I've been calling clingy is my deepest fear of him leaving
My deepest fear of rejection is that it's all manipulation
He's the first to love me and truly love me for who I am
He's the first that's genuine
I love him so much
I will forever be amazed he loves me and puts up with me
