Tears are coming into my eyes and I can't look at him any longer. He shuffles closer and takes my chin between his index finger and thumb, so I have no other choice than to look at him. I'm looking at his ear, everything to avoid looking him into the eyes. What is there to say? I can't get the image of him and Jenny out of my mind. I can't believe that only hours ago, I said yes. I wanted to marry him.
'Blair, look at me, please. I'm so sorry.'
'How could you,' I manage to say. Where are all these tears coming from? They keep on flowing. It hurts so much. Breathe. Help, I can't. In. Out. In. Out.
I take a step back. 'Get him away from me. Please. Someone, get him away from me. I don't want to see him ever again,' I yell from the top of my lungs. In the corner of my eye, I see Dan walking to Chuck.
'That would be my pleasure. Chuck, it's time for you to leave. Come with me.' I see him grabbing Chuck's arm and he's trying to pull Chuck with him. Chuck keeps standing still. It's like he wants to say something, but he closes his mouth again. I turn away, away from him. A couple seconds later, I hear two couple of footsteps fading.
I can't believe I fell for it again. Every time I look into his eyes, I seem to forget my own name even. How weak can I be?
I jump. Two arms are embracing me. It's Serena, I can smell it from that too sweet perfume of hers. What is she doing here? I don't want her to witness my mental breakdown. I can't seem to find the words, though. I'm succumbing to the exhaustion. I don't care care anymore. I have to go away from here. 'Can you take me somewhere?' I whisper to her.
'Where do you want to go?' Serena asks softly. She tries to turn me around, but I can't fully face her. I know I look like sh*t and I'm embarrased.
What is so tight on my finger? Oh, sh*t, it's that stupid ring. Sh*t, sh*t, sh*t. It needs to get off. F*ck, why is it so tight? It doesn't get off. Now I have to walk with this ugly *ss diamond for the rest of my life. That's my punishment. I shouldn't have been so weak. Let everyone see how stupid I am. The fact is, Chuck will never ever change. I still fall for it, for him, every single time. Why?
Ah, yes. The ring slides of my finger. I slam the ring on the ground.
'It doesn't matter, as long as it is as far from here as possible,' is my answer to Serena's question. I turn around and with big steps, I start walking. Serena's footsteps are following me.
This is definitely the worst night of my entire life. No way will I ever fall for any of Chuck's games ever again. One thing is certain: I have to leave and go far away from the Upper East Side.
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A Heart That Can Only Break So Many Times
FanfictionThis story is a fanfiction. It's based on Blair and Chuck from Gossip Girl. After Chuck breaks Blair's heart for the thousandth time by sleeping with Jenny, Blair decides to study abroad, in the Netherlands. After finishing her Communication studies...