poems to books i'll never write and lyrics to songs i'll never sing

drink me

i knew i cared when i started asking you if you'd eaten or drank anything today
and i knew i cared when it physically pained me to see you in pain too

i know i cared
but i know maybe you felt like nobody did

but then i still cared when you left
when my head became empty and cold from the missing warmth your smile radiated
when my lips no longer tasted like your chapstick but instead like vodka

and i just missed you