roommates | namjin

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-Seokjin-

Seokjin: namjoon

Seokjin: where did you go

Seokjin: i went to check on you in your room but you weren't there

Namjoon: i dont know i just kinda wanna be alone right now

Seokjin: do you want me to text you back

Namjoon: no

Namjoon: wait can we still text

Namjoon: i just feel weird being around people right now

Seokjin: yeah sure

Seokjin: i'll text until you come back

Namjoon: okay thanks

Namjoon: jin do you think i'm weird

Namjoon: like in a bad way

Seokjin: no of course not

Seokjin: considering our chat i recon your the furthest from weird in a bad way

Namjoon: yeah but you guys know nothing about my life outside of my his school

Seokjin: and that's fine

Seokjin: just becuase we are friends doesn't mean you have to tell us everything

Seokjin: what you tell us is up to you

Seokjin: and if you don't want to tell me or any of the others anything then that's totally fine

Namjoon: thanks

Namjoon: but i think i want to tell you

Seokjin: yeah of course

Namjoon: i guess i just feel weird telling people about this because they view it as abnormal because they have fine relationships with their parents

Seokjin: just because we do doesn't mean that your weird

Seokjin: i had a shit bf and you treated me like i was still a person

Namjoon: yeah

Namjoon: okay so i have no idea how i mean to say this but i'm just going to try

Seokjin: of course take your time

Namjoon: it started when i was like 11 i think

Namjoon: i had a friend called suho

Namjoon: i had other friends but i could tell that something between me and suho was different

Namjoon: i used to go to his house every other day

Namjoon: my dad used to say to me that it was good that i had a friend that close becuase he could help me get a girlfriend when i was older

Namjoon: but when he said that i thought that i didn't want to be with a girl becuase i wanted to be with suho

Namjoon: i said it to my dad and he just laughed and said i was funny because he would kill me if i did anything that i 'should do with a girl' to suho

Seokjin: he said that to you when you where 11??

Seokjin: did your mum not say anything

Namjoon: my dad was heavily abusive to my mum

Namjoon: i lost contact with her when she left when i was 9

Seokjin: omg i'm so sorry namjoon

Namjoon: i mean my dad didn't let me and her have a close relationship because i was a son and i should be closer with him

Seokjin: okay that's just fucked up

Namjoon: yeah i guess

Namjoon: there wasn't really any getting out of it

Namjoon: but anyways

Namjoon: when i was 12 suho came over to my house and we where just chilling in my room

Namjoon: we decided to kiss but the moment we did my dad can in telling us that dinner was ready

Namjoon: he never let suho stay after that and he practically called me a fag everyday since

Namjoon: sometimes he got physical if j did sometime to piss him off

Seokjin: it shouldn't matter if you piss him off or not

Seokjin: he shouldn't get physical

Namjoon: yeah that's why coming to this college was a good thing

Namjoon: he calls and shouts sometimes but i don't have to be in the same room as him

Namjoon: i guess that's why i've been scared to accept who i am

Seokjin: i get that

Seokjin: well not the situation

Seokjin: but just know that you can take as long as you need to find out who you are

Seokjin: me and the others are always going to be there to support you if you find out yourself tomorrow or never at all

Seokjin: just don't bottle everything up like this

Seokjin: we aren't going to judge you for it

Namjoon: thanks jin

Seokjin: no problem <3

Seokjin: you coming back to the dorm now

Namjoon: yeah i'll be there in five

Seokjin: okay <3