1/13/2024 12:35am
Husk
The sky looks green
College is a maze
And I'm underwater
The rooms well lit
By small strung bulbs
My comforts left. Alone
Cling to small wishes
Wishes turn to dust
Finding old trinkets
Metal turns to rust
Outside it's raining
But the droplets don't sound
Can you hear rain deep underwater?
Do you feel earthquakes underground?
Pestering, billowing, cursing to find
Give them your passions
They sway you with wine
Trading my sanity to be in thier presence
Paying the price
Passive aggressive undertone advice
How can I heal these wounds
If you keep cutting me up
How can these stitches sooth
If you keep ruoughing them up
And held up by the crutch
And shattered bone by bone
Your yelling is the worst torture I've ever known
While gashes may heal
My heart has bullet holes
They cling on like parasites
Through tales to unfold
Whatching old Disney movies
A bandaid on the bleeding out
I've escaped from a vacation of a forced hush
My body doesn't know I'm allowed
That I can afford
To finially
Shout
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1/14/2024 5:00pm
Childhood
She hears the whines of an abusive daughter
I hear the cries of a child gone through hell
She can't see the light at the end of the tunnel
Still going through it she'll dance with the devil
She sees a no good self spoiled brat
I see a 2end grader hiding from that
A large shadowed silhouette that wants her childhood back
Living through her terrified daughter sobbing under her bathroom mat
Wont fight back
Counting with her eyes closed tight
Hoping no one will find her
The yelling was loud she didn't want a fight
Yet the heat in her throat defied her
Bullies across lives, bullies across jurisdictions
An inconvenience to some
A non guilty conviction.
Self affliction
Biting nails
Silent pains
Silent wails
My head swirled mad with tears
My face stone cold
Emotions feared
But the numbness is melting
Every time I leave home it defrosts
Every time I escape
I must process
The love
The pieces
Of
The childhood that I lost
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I/16/2024 11:20pm
I'm frozen
I'm lost
Flurries
Blizzards
Can't move me or toss
Freezing
My shivers aren't even moving
I can't see where I'm going
It's gone
Don't know why I feel this ache
In my chest like I'm running a race
My mind rushes as I must be running late
Tick tock
Tick tock
It's winter
I'll wait.
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Sophomore soliloquies
PoetryIf you've ever felt burdened by being a sophomore in college your not alone. I'm writing these and posting them as I go along. So we can feel less alone together, in a complicated world, within a song. Please feel free to comment, critique, or ask...
