Hide And Seek

Unknow Feelings

"Marcus"I Jumped A Bit From The Voice Just Realizing It's Lucas"Yes"
I Said And Went Back To Studying After I Came Back From My Meeting Lucas And Emma We're Cooking Dinner And I Told Them I Ate Yesterday While I Was Out And
Did Some More Studying.

"You Been Studying Since One In The Morning It's Eight O'clock"Lucas Said
I Looked Over At My Phone And Just Realized I Been Studying Since Last Night"Oh...I Didn't Notice"I Said
And Went Back To Writing In My Notebook"You Been At It For Almost Eight Hours You Need A Break"Lucas Said

"Can't I'm Busy"I Said Still Looking
At My Books Then Lucas Took My Book"Lucas Give It Back"I Said Standing Up Trying To Get My Books From Him"No More Studying You
Need A Break"Lucas Said And Took
All My Books In His Hands.

The Problem Is I Didn't Want To
Stop I Wanted To Keep Myself Busy From Losing It Just To Keep My Mind Busy"Fine Then I'm Heading Out"I
Said And Took My Books From His Hand Putting Them Back In My Bag

"You Have A Big Test Or Something ?"He Asked I Told Him
Exams Were On For The Whole School Before The End Of The School Year "Shit I Have School"I Started Getting My Clothes Trying To Hurry"Language And You Have Time"He Said I Ran Into The Bathroom Changing Into A New Pair Of Clothes.

Getting My Shoes On Hurrily Getting My Bag And My Phone Checking If
I Have Everything I Quickly Went
Over To The Kitchen Taking My
Meds Drinking Some Water
"Okay,Bye"I Said And Got My
Sweater

"I'll Take You"Lucas Said And Opened
The Door I Got In The Car Playing
With The Stress Ball In My Hand
Trying To Keep My Hands Busy
Into I Was Alone And Take The
Edge Off.

"You Okay ?"Lucas Said While I Kept Looking Out The Window Playing With My Stress Ball In My Hands"Yeah"I Said And Kepted Looking Out The Window Trying To Think Of Anything
Else Right Now"Something On Your Mind ?"He Asked Stopping The Car Pulling To The Line At Drop Off

"It's Nothing"I Said And Felt His
Hand On Me I Shifted In My Seat
Of His Sudden Hand On Me"What's Wrong ?"He Asked I Took A Breath Out Looking At Him"I Got An Offer
From My Old Coach In Baseball To Play Again Yesterday"I Said It Wasn't
A Lie But That Wasn't The Thing That
Was Bothering Me.

"Is That A Good Thing ?"He
Questioned"I Guess I Told Him
I Wasn't Interested After What
Happened"I Said And He Moved
The Car More Up To The Line
Looking At Me Again

"What Happened ?"He Asked
With A Hit Of Concern.

"It Was The Last Game I Needed One More Home Run To Win The Game I Was Edgey Having My Bad Days With My Meds I Blacked Out And Woke Up In The Hospital Andy Said I Won The Game But My Heart Stopped Beating Cause Of Some Complications With My
Pacemaker I Haven't Played A Game Since That Day"I Said And Told Him Not To Worry And Was About To Get Out Of The Car

"But You Want To Play,Right ?"He Asked I Said I Wanted To Play It Made Me Feel Like Nothing Else Mattered When I Was In That Baseball Filed
And Give It My All"I'll Walk Back"I Said And He Gave Me A Kiss On The Cheek Telling Me To Have A Good
Day At School.