I miss being a mother and a wife
Remembering the strength we once had that held us together .
What happened to our forever ?
I lay by your side, holding back tears
From all the old memories over the years
I thought These feelings had died .
Has to much time passed us by ?
Have we grown apar , times have changed ?
Our life's our rearranged
I havent heard a word from my sons
Its almost like I never had one .
My heart still holding on To everything that is now gone
But im still here my presence is not well known
I'm not hiding just wanting to be alone
Even though I'd rather be dead
Than live with all the hurt in my head
I made mistakes I can't fix
I knew I had to eventually deal with this
I made poor choices anyways
Using child like excuses Is all I can say
Your still here
I hurt you , I hurt everyone . Why should I even try ?
" Sometimes i think its easier to give up and die.
Being away from you has weakened my mind
I let people walk all over me one at a time Everything we worked so hard to have
I gave away or sold is that really sad ?
I skipped time i couldn't afford to skip
What made my mind fucking flip
The guilt and cuts are so deep in my soul
I choose to get high for some self control
Its all a facade though Nobody fucking cares anymore Except you .. the rock .
The pillar of strength in my life.
Whatever i need you alwys privide
