lovelydunandjoseph

i like to say hi every now and then… so hi!!
          	happy (almost) new year!
          	and happy holidays!!

FloofyShadowSky

I just read “pressous” (misspelled I know) and was quite scared of your self harm talk, you should really get some help, no matter what the hand of life gives you, YOU. ARE. SPECIAL! No matter what, your books are amazing, your personality is amazing, YOU are amazing, no matter what, keep on living, i hope to hear from you soon.

lovelydunandjoseph

hahaha thank u luv. everything i’ve written was years ago when i was in a dark place, i’m no longer in high school and i’m doing a lot better. u are very sweet, thank u
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Twenty1pilots4eva

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I attempted suicide for the first time almost 6 years ago and my parents immediately threw me into a 30 day inpatient mental hospital. I was at that time diagnosed with Bipolar Major depression anxiety agoraphobia phobia of leaving your house schizophrenia and dissociative disorder which is a really really hard one to understand if you don't have it but basically my personal experience with it is I have a really really difficult time feeling like my mind and my body are part of the same person sometimes I feel like I know im obviously living my life but it doesn't feel that way.  So much of the time I feel like im watching someone else's life from outside myself shit this is hard to explain lol ok here I feel like im watching someone else's life through a movie. Like have you ever heard anyone say they had a near death experience and they had an "out of body experience" feeling like they were watching themselves from another perspective. It's sorta like that. It makes it really hard not to wind up doing things that are risky I don't feel myself very often I almost always feel numb and sometimes I'll even forget chunks or time periods of my life I'll have no memory of doing whatever it is I did as if my body was on like auto pilot. I attempted suicide 2 more times and I have always struggled with self harm. That's it if you need to talk to someone please reach out if not to me then to someone anyone please. I'll say this and if you're not a religious person that's fine I would never try to force my beliefs on anyone but I need to at least say this. If you don't already you would be surprised how much a relationship with God can help you. Maybe read the Bible and pray. You can talk to God just like a therapist but it's easier and it gets much better results I promise.
          Ok if you do need to talk just message me back ok. God bless you fren. "Stay alive it's worth it I promise" - Tyler Robert Joseph.

Twenty1pilots4eva

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          I attempted suicide for the first time almost 6 years ago I was 14. I was hospitalized by my parents at that point in a 30 day in stay mental health hospital (which I don't know if you have ever been but if not... Yeah kinda pointless). I don't really know how I feel about like therapists because it's really hard for me to believe that someone could ever even slightly have a real understanding of what having mental illness means because unless they themselves have those things there's no way in Hell they could in a million years even begin to understand what it's like to struggle just reading some medical books sorry not buying it. I am in no way trying to discourage you from going to therapy if it's something that might work for you just my little bitch and gripe session.

Twenty1pilots4eva

Hi die hard T∅P fan here.. well I suppose my profile name made that obvious duh but anyway. I stumbled upon your account because Joshlers are my guilty pleasure and when I read your bio I had to message you. I don't know if still get on here or if you even still have the above mentioned mental health issues or if you have found something that has helped you to better handle those things. I know how it feels to have mental illness. Im going to tell you about what I struggle with in just a quick bio about myself so that if you are still struggling and you do need someone who understands what it is to have mental health problems maybe you'll feel a bit more comfortable reaching out.