Oh my God, you guys!
It happened on January 9th (my mom's birthday). That next week there was a lot of snow so classes were cancelled at the university a whole week. That week I barely moved from my bed. I lost weight, my friends were telling me I looked dead inside.
I'm still struggling with eating after that... but I would say my spark is back, I know that. But some nights are just so rough. Sometimes I have wonderful dreams in which we are on a date or something and wake up with the cold reality.
Some days are easier than others but I had never fallen in love before... and I'm sad it was with him because of what he did. I did think of things I could have done different, but you guys are right. It was him, not me.
I just feel like a clown and so alone sometimes about it. Ashamed even
So thank you for the support, it means a lot ㅠ.ㅠ
@LeeIu23 @LAJoyner @Annawren2010