Precious Pearl

Chapter 14

Aadhya PoV :

I saw vihaan bye slept beside me looking so relax but I don't know I don't have this relax in me, how can I sleep when lot of guilt is in me?

I tried to remove his hand from my waist but he is strong though
Keyword : tired

I sigh as I know I can't do it now anymore, seeing him so close to me, protectiveness is bring guilt to me that I shouldn't love him no he shouldn't love me as I don't deserve it, 3 person in my life I love and I hurt them brutally

First my dad more like step dad whom I sent to jail
Then my mom whom I killed
Then my friend Yuvaan whom I hurt him, I don't know where he is now?

Remembering them old memories come in my head making me deep breath I can't fuck have my panic attack now when my brother sleeping beside me he will worried nor I can go and cry in bathroom as his hold is soo tight I did what I felt like

I have sharp nail no wonder, I just move my sleeve little upwards so my wrist can show up and put my nail deep into it making it cut

It so painful but I deserve I don't deserve love I always hurt who love me, I hate myself God should take me not mom as I am devil here

Tears start forming in my eyes and my hand turning red with blood

"Fuck aadhya yeh kya kiya? Ager vihaan bhai ko pata chala toh he will gonna hate you" I said to myself

I don't know where to wipe the blood as it flowing lots its making me scared I can't move also so I can't wipe it

I saw I wore black pant so I wipe it so it won't see much then with lip lick the remaining blood which was coming using my saliva to stop which it work

I relaxed seeing no one knows..but till when? My unconscious mind mock me but I slide it and try to sleep but can't as all memories coming to me

How I saw my dad hitting my mom and I hiding from it crying in corner I wish to help mom but I was just 10-11 years old? How I waiting for my turn in basement where they will see my if I fit so they sold me as sex slave in roman or just cut my body into pieces fucking mafia, manytimes I don't know why I deserve so hatred? But I let my mind calm as I can't hurt myself now when I am not alone sleeping specially

I saw my hand their is no place in my wrist which been not cut, all my hand cut with blade, knife, wire (current), nails marking is their making me look I deserve all, I slightly pull my pant up to thigh to see my art on it, most of just disappear but their were lots of new one as I starting doing when I come here one months before or I will do my all life its better to die than living in guilt I prefer

I always hurt my wrist and thigh as no one can see or I just eat ice to make my self weak or worst I seat under water for 3-4 hours then come back take medicine to not catch cold or worse thing I do is go for street fight or a car racing for my mind peace but I do when I know mom won't come back in 2-3 days but here is impossible I see of you think I am princess? No I am monster who really burn the whole word for her love but in result her mom is not their her loved whom she did all, I hate mafia, I hate blood, I hate demon face in mee but when I remember my past I think I deserve it I love flower but life want me to seat between cactus and who am I too go against?

I wish I could kill myself but I know my mom need me but if I do now I felt my brothers need me seeing my family I can't rest in peace so I tortured myself for being week

I wipe my tears and hug bhai as I need comfort before I do something worse, I hug his torso and he too hold me tightly I was inhaling his sweet fragrance I don't know when I slept

(Author : this is book please take it as one don't try anything above mention, in this aadhya to went worse, she think she is pathetic but she never give up and in result she will gonna have beautiful life which make her understand hurting yourself is not solution but talking with other is so please don't try it or me, vihaan and adi gonna kill you 🔪🔪)

"Did you cook this" my step dad said

"Yes dad" I said as he told me too cook 21 dish but I can only do 17 in 4 hours as I am tired and lack of time

"Its 17 princess" he said

"Sorry dad but 17 dish is enough and I don't have time" I said looking down, I am strong girl I know but if show strong self to him he will gonna hurt mom if he do to me I don't care but I can't risk mom life

"Okay see this slut can speak to" he said holding my checks which make me angry and pathetic as I can't do anything

"Don't worry princess let your mom come so I can talk to her" he said making me shiver and I bent down holding his leg

"Please daddy mumma ko khuch mat kero give me 10 minutes I will cook what you want per mumma ko khuch math kere" I said but after that I remember I was crying on floor he went out with his friend he come at late night and I hear some voice from the mom room I go near it

"Mumma darwaza kholo, mumma please, daddy please' daddy, daddy nahi please daddy, daddy"

"Princess wake up you making me worried" I hear voice but I can't open my eyes as I open my mom will stuck inside forever in room with that monster

I got nightmares everyday and after 3-4 hours it go as room is soundproof so no one know but how can I forgot today I was not alone?

Vihaan PoV :

I was sleeping peacefully after so long time back then I hear voice

"Daddy daddy" I thought is dream so let it go but then same voice come again I recognise it's my angel voice even in sleep I can't see her worry

I open my eyes and I shocked seeing her body is burning, she shivering muttering daddy daddy then I noticed her breath is not normal

"Princess wake up you making me worried" I said

"Princess wake up" I tried again calling her but no effect

"Jaan please darao mat" I said no response

I don't seeing her in this state tears form in my eyes I saw this sence before in basement when I punished them so brutal they ended up having nightmares but today is different

"Hey love please open your eyes see your vihaan bhai is here" I said but fail only one name come from her mouth that is daddy

Should I called papa? I should she need him without wasting I dial his number

"Vihaan what happen why you called me so late night? Everything's fine?" He said in tense I know he love us but like him I am bad expressing

"D-a-ddhh" words don't come to my mind

"Hey buddy you are making me shiver are you crying" dad said

"Please come to my room" I said crying I am the least one who cry at home, I don't know last time when I cried? But seeing her breaking me

I saw dad at door and saw he too panic see front view aadhya was in my arms and I am trying my best to wake her up but I failed

I failed as brother once again