I know that I'll never be someone's first choice or second or third for that matter
And that feeling is really shitty to be honest
Knowing that your loving them with all you've got
And also knowing that they'll never love you the same
I always knew you wouldn't but I never thought that I cared this much
I cared as much as it lead to me turning of my emotions because I couldn't handle the hurt
And now I don't even know how it works
I'm just a bunch of bones and flesh breathing
That's it
the old me that romanticized every small thing
Already gave up
