My Life

~Oblivion

I sit there, watching them chat, watching them laugh.

Do they notice how unhappy I am?

Head jumbled up with thoughts, struggling to concentrate.

Do they notice how confused I am?

Fighting to keep my eyes wide openㅡfor they are stubborn, wanting to seal shut.

Do they notice how exhausted I am?

I see their mouths move, but no sound comes out. I could hear nothingㅡexcept for the voices inside my head.

Do they notice how helpless I am?

The aroma of food invaded my nostrils,

my stomach protested, feeling bile rise in my throat.

Do they notice how thin I have become?

Chest tightening,

Taking deep breaths to keep my heart at bay.

Do they notice how broken I have become?

Their cheerful smiles, the brightness in their eyes, the sound of their amused laughter.

Anger consumed me,

They never noticed.