Worth Living For // Frerard FanFiction (Completed)

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Gerards P.O.V
I look in the mirror and examined the bruise on my face.
It was purple, a distorted purple I had never seen before.
People were definetly going to see, and I wouldn't be invisible anymore, I would be the talk of the school, the new fad.

Just as I had predicted, that's exactly what people did.
As soon as I stepped out of my car, people stared and gasped.
The pretty odd boy with black straightened hair was now being noticed, and I didn't like it.

During all my classes, people would stay atleast 2 chairs away from me, and I liked the space, but it made me sad.

My art lesson was the exact same.

"Okay class, 2 minutes left till the bell" Ms. Helena said.

"Mr. Way, please stay back"
I looked straight up.
Why would I have to stay back?
I couldn't be in trouble?
It was probably nothing...

-

"I see you have a pretty bad bruise there Gerard, tell me what happened".

"Nothing, I tripped"

"Well I have heard that you forced yourself up on Chad Pickens and he punched you in the face to get you off"

I was shocked.
He was making up lies about what happened?

"Now I don't believe you would EVER do anything like that, so tell me, what happened"

"It was nothing okay, I accidentally got hit" I left the class not wanting any more.

-

I picked Ray and Mikey up and we drove home.

I ran into my room and cried my eyes out.
Chad was making people believe the horrid things?
Why would he do this?

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I woke up the next morning at 4am with dried tears on my face, I needed to escape, so I left.
I left in my pyjamas and drove to the Cemetary.

I began listening to music and drawing.
I drew someone clenching onto a rose full of thorns, he didn't care about the thorns, as the rose was too beautiful.

I must have fallen asleep because when I snapped back to reality it was dark out.

Shit. I raced home and there they were, waiting for me.

"WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN GERARD ARTHUR WAY, DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT TIME IT IS. DO YOU KNOW HOW SCARY IT WAS WAKING UP TO FIND YOU HAD GONE WITHOUT A NOTE OR ANYTHING"

"Why didn't you answer your phone G?" Mike asked sternly.

"My phone was on silent, and I'm sorry ma, I lost track of time"

She pulled me in for a hug and told me it never do it again.

-

The next day was worse than any of the previous ones.

I picked Ray up and he talked to me instead of Mikey.

"Hey Gerard"

"Mm"

"Is it true you have had sex with 28 different people?"

"What?? Where did you heart that!?!?"

"Rumors are spreading like wildfire throughout the school"

"If you don't hear it from me, it's not true okay?"

He nodded.

-

People yelled things at me.
"How many HIV's you got Way?"
"You have aids"

I was recieving text messages, notes in my bag, locker and stuck on my back.

People wrote on the toilet walls about how much of a fag I was, and a man whore.

Walking through the halls was like walking through a room full of broken records.

-

I got home and their mimicking and mocking rung through my head like broken bells.

I couldn't escape it.

Chad had told people I tried to rape him..

My instagram was flooded with message request from people I didn't know telling me how I should be in jail.

Text messages stated that I am a sick fuck.

It was to much.

I ran a warm bath and sat in it.
I pushed myself under and tried holding my breath until I was on the edge of passing out.

I secretly hoped I would pass out, and let my lungs fill with water.

-

The next day, picking Ray up, he had so much more to tell me.

"So people are claiming they had sex with you and it was horrible, and that you tried to do the same stuff, touch them without consent, rape them"

"non of this is true at all, I am still a virgin" I put my head on the steering wheel in agony".

Why can't this blow over?

The day was filled with people staring at me, whispering behind my back and talking under their breath when I walked past.

I can't beat these people...
I can't beat these people..?
If you can't beat them join them, right?
No that's a bad idea..
Maybe I should start admitting to the rumors?
I mean..
I don't even know.

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That afternoon I went shopping.
I bought a blue leather jacket that had red and white stripes on the upper sleeve.
I bought some leather boots and some grey skinny jeans.
I went to the hair dye section of the store and wanted a bold colour.
I went with the brightest red you have ever seen.

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I had spent hundreds at the shop, maybe this could work..?