I forgot to mention it, but at the beginning of this book I was 124.3 lbs (56.3 kg) at the height of 5'4".
I've checked my weight today and I'm now 142.1 lbs (64.4 kg!!) I got so happy that I went and ate a box of mac n cheese to celebrate, and then had steak for dinner about an hour later.
I went to the beach 2 days ago(?) and I was wearing a new bikini. My mom put her hand on my belly and told me to watch what I was eating. It made me so excited!
Yea, I'll watch what I eat. I'll watch it grow my belly!
I've decided to set a goal weight. It isn't too much, but I'm very excited to get there. My goal is 180 lbs (81.6 kg). I want to get there by November.
I plan to go to the beach again soon, because my friend asked to go with next time, implying there would be a next time. I want my belly even bigger for that bikini. I want people to stare at my big belly and judge how fat I am.
I want to hear more of my mom's remarks about my weight. I want to hear my friends tell me I'm getting fat, my old sports coaches to look at me and be disappointed in the fatty I've become.
