Ash

Omg when he calls me baby in Spanish *and* in kichwa >>>>>

Happy pride month everyone!!! 

I should have stopped the game a long time ago. I had a cute, handsome, caring, funny, loving boy right next to me the whole time. But I thought he saw me as just a friend. So I tried to forget my feelings for him. 
          
          No one has ever made me feel as safe and loved as he has. 
          
          I'm thankful he was my first kiss
          
          I'm thankful to call him mine now

I HAD MY FIRST KISSSS
          
          fuck the game it was not worth anything I should have left it a long time ago because the boy right in front of me treats me better and makes me feel safer than anyone else ever had.
          
          I thank my best friend and the pocky game 

PSA!!!:
          
          never NEVER agree to an open relationship/situationship/ anything that isn't serious. Even if you yourself aren't looking for something serious, don't get yourself into something casual, it will only hurt you. 
          
          The guy that I was in a situationship with is always throwing mixed signals and this has been going on for a while. I realized that I stopped liking him a long time ago and really the thing keeping me with him was the fact that he was giving me the physical affection that I had only ever dreamed of. We never really had an emotional bond. I enjoyed the game he played so much that I pushed aside feelings that I have for one of my friends; someone who I do have a deep emotional bond with, all because there was something in me that wanted to keep playing the game and hoped it would lead to something real. 
          
          I think I've finally got it in my head that the situationship is going nowhere and that it's not doing anything for me or anyone. And I think it took my friends reciprocation of affection in order to resurface those feelings and differentiate what's fake and what's real. 
          
          This past week I've been trying to distance myself from my situationship (the game) and in turn I've been getting really close to my friend again like we used to be. And for the first time since I started playing the game, I've been happy and comfortable with someone. 
          
          I even spent all weekend texting with my friend.  And while I was third wheeling on my bsfs date he texted me out of nowhere just to say he missed me..... 
          
          Got me thinking about how much I've missed him since I started playing the game. 
          
          
          So the game ends Monday 

Omg my best friend got me a baby bunny for my birthday I named him Lucifer omggggg

Yooo I'm 15 nooowww :)

So now I have to pretend to be a couple with the guy I likeeeeee
          
          Kshesjdbdjnd

I got the month super full rn. 
          
          Monday, Wednesday, Friday: dance practice for my quince
          
          Thursday, Saturday: singing and drums
          
          Tuesday, Friday: band practice 
          
          Thursday: dance practice for gala
          
          14th: open house
          
          15: my bdaaaayyy
          
          17: band festival (I have to perform) 
          
          25: best friends bday
          
          27: ballet gala
          
          
          This is what happens when u need to be busy or else you just shut down 
          
          
          

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