Orange Juice Box • Jesse x !FEM! y/n

🖇️;; Chapter 19.1 - Am I crazy

Tae Young's POV

I can't wait for our anniversary to come! Y/n's a very special to me

Years had past but I can't help but like her

The day we had our first meet up at that cafe, I started to get to know her more

Months past since that day I started courting her

A year passed since that day, she finally agreed to become my girlfriend

But I couldn't help but think

"Shit, am I falling out of love..? Am I cheating if so? Fuck am I a cheater?", I panicked

"Nonononono, calm dawn Tae", I said to myself as I felt my heart beat

My heart still beats the same way it did years ago when I think of her

Then why?

Is it because I only like her as a friend?

No.

I can't think that way, cause if I do think that way it becomes true

And if it becomes true it would mean I've been leading her on for about 5 years

I'm not that type of person... Right?

Is it one's fault if their heart feels that way?

Oh god why am I like this, I shouldn't think this way!

I groaned a bit as I started to play with my nails

"Tae?", I heard y/n's voice call out to me as I immediately calmed down

I went to her voice seeing her with a bag of chips and sodas

"Movie night?", She said as I smiled widely

"Movie night", I said as I helped her with the things she had brought

While she was making some fries, I went ahead to the living room to make a comfy pillow(+blanket) fort

When she returned she was surprised to see the fort I built as she smiled

"Wow, you're stepping up your game huh?", She said as I laughed and patted the space beside me

"Let's watch Encanto", I said as she agreed and opened the tv

While we wait for the internet to kick in to the tv, I played with her hair as she laid at my shoulders

If I do end up hurting you, I hope you forgive me.

I hope you'd be able to move on.

I hope you'd find someone much better.

And I hope that won't get away in any of our friendship.

I was then surprised when 'The Family Madrigal' started to play

I can hear y/n whisper the lyrics as I smiled softly at her

Please let me hold you close like this

Please let's hang out like this

Please let's continue like this

Please I don't want to leave you like this

I felt tears go down my eyes as I quickly wipe them away

Why am I having these thoughts? Am I crazy!?

I looked at y/n as I see her too busy watching the movie to realize the continuous tears streaming down my cheeks

I kissed her head as I hear her giggle

I'm sorry if I really do fall out of love.

Short chap(?) for now 😔❗ Also, I really do hope y'all forgive me for like, idk, playing around with their lives HAHAHJXNSHAHA😭 anyways A LITTLE TAE YOUNG'S POV TO SPICE THINGS UP