Got Nothing Left To Lose

Chapter 13

Ma'Kayla
I couldn't believe Justin had really left me here it's been real quiet since he had left

Calvin and Layla has been whisper arguing about me thinking I couldn't hear them

it seemed that Layla didn't want me here and Calvin was trying to explain to her that I needed help and that they was all the family I had left

honestly I wasn't even mad at Layla for not wanting me to be here the kind of best friend I have been to her is just sad

don't get me wrong I do know about her medical journey and everything because I look at her records all the time and Justin be talking to me about it so I'm not clueless on what's been going on

I was so hungry and couldn't stay inside that room any longer I walked right pass Calvin and Layla as if they weren't arguing and reached for the front door

"where you going you were given direct orders to stay put" Calvin said

"I'm just going to take a walk and get some food" I said

"well then let me take you" he said grabbing his keys

"I'm good plus it seems y'all need some time alone to discuss something's about me without me here" I said

"ight we'll them give me your keys" he said

"for what" I said

"you going on a walk right so you don't need no keys for that" he said

I rolled my eyes and through my keys on the coffee table and walked out the door

I decided to get some Charlie's cheesesteak and eat on the beach

Calvin's house was close to the water which I knew was Layla's idea that girl know she love her some water.

As I was eating and drinking on my pink lemonade I spotted a little girl walking towards the water with her mom and dad she was a pretty little girl too it was a bitter sweet thing

I was glad to see that some family's did stay together in one house hold to raise their kid.

I wanted that so bad that it hurt but I knew their was no getting Ave back she was gone no I didn't know for sure but I felt like going on a killing spree and just dropping niggas left to right was getting me nowhere so I just let it go

everyday I regretted going to that damn business dinner i honestly wished I never met Justin sometimes because if I wasn't so head over heels for him me and my daughter would still be together living our happy life

even though Justin and Calvin was still in search of Ave trying to prove that they where sorry well that was more of Calvin Justin just tried to keep his promise that he would find her and that he had nothing to do with her getting kidnapped or the fact that he knew who my father really was

in my heart I really did want to believe Justin but I just couldn't that amount of people that did me wrong in my past was playing apart of my judgment towards the situation I didn't even realize that I was now crying

i quickly wiped them away crying over shit that I couldn't change was useless so I just chose not to think about my life and just drink it away