She's mine - Charles Leclerc

1.1

Its the Sunday in the weekend of the Brazilian GP. 10 weeks since Sam died. 10 weeks since his funeral. After his funeral Charles and I immediately flew back to Monaco. Andrea took care of the car. Since we arrived back home, I haven't left it. I just haven't found the energy to. Of course I've done grocery shopping and that kind of stuff, but I haven't been out of Monaco. Charles has been going to the races. First he didn't want to go, because he wanted to keep an eye on me, but I forced him to. A lot of people were wondering were I was. Charles got a lot of questions about it. He always answered them with: she's home for personal reasons.

When Charles is home, he is really caring. I am so thankful for him. I don't know where I would be if he wasn't my best friend.

Charles had a bad race. Well, he didn't even start the race. He's been so unlucky this year. He texted me 5 minutes ago that he was on his way home. I walk downstairs and just stare out the window. The doorbell rings and I turn my head towards the door, confused, because I didn't expect someone to come or any packages. I open the door and get welcomed by Lily, who pulls me into a hug. When she pulls away, she shows me a food container with lunch I'm guessing.

"Hey Bella, I brought us some lunch," Lily says and I smile, and let her in. Every time Lily was in Monaco, she came to check on me, and keep me some company. I really appreciate her for it.

"Charles and Alex are together on a plane, so they'll arrive on the same time, and we'll have dinner together. Is that okay with you?" Lily asks and I nod. "Yeah that's fine."

We talk about all kind of stuff while we eat our lunch.

"Have you heard about the death of Matthew Perry?" Lily asks and I nod.

"Yeah, I saw the news while I was watching friends. Great timing," I answer. "That's indeed a great timing."

It's silent for a moment.

"So how are you?" Lily asks. I knew this question was coming. "I'm fine," I lie, and Lily raises her eyebrows, tilting her head. "How are you really feeling?"

I sigh. "I just feel empty. I don't know how to move on from this, because Sam was my only family who really cared about me. I know that I have you, Charles, Alex, Carmen, Lando and George, but still, Sam was my little brother and I cared so deeply for him." Tears run down my cheeks, and Lily gets off her chair and walks over to me to give me a hug. "We love you, Bella."

I'm really lucky with people like Lily around me.