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19 years ago

Yn pov

I was here laying on this hospital bed from don't know how many days, Day by the the doctors came and check up on me telling me that my body isn't responding to their treatment and now I don't even have any money left with me to pay them for my treatment

I shifted in my place feeling a little pain in my chest, I hissed but nevertheless I'm getting habituated of this pain and telling this with my intuition I won't make it for that long anymore its my internal self telling me and giving me hints to live the time I'm left with before I live this world behind.

I took my phone from the table where my phone and medicines were placed as I start scrolling through my gallery same as everyday

There he was....my life...whom I left behind to run away from my problems...

It hurts the same everyday but today for some reasons I don't wanna cry looking at his smiling pictures I want to enjoy the time I have while looking at him because I know now I won't get to look at him eyes in eyes in front of me ever again

A year passed that I was trying everyday to contact him through social medias through calls or through anything that can make him stand in front of me again but no....we have to give up to out fate no matter what..

No matter how much I fought no matter how much I cried no matter how much I tried to hold unto him

It was hurting me only.....it was killing me everyday without me realizing from the day I run away from home I start forgetting the fact that I'm a human...that I need to take care of myself too in order to stay well so I can see tomorrow

But what I did? Starve myself for months didn't even sleep enough and the money my father gave me....I guess all of them were wasted in me drinking alcohol taking sleeping pills...

So after every bullshit i put myself in here I am laying on my death bed with nothing but memories of my past which I don't think will give me any benefit letting go cuz I don't have any tomorrow now I can die any minute soon so it's better to remember my happy times and smile then to hurt myself more in letting go cuz I hurted myself enough all these months to change something

Which was my addiction of jungkook...I tried and successfully after all those nights where I remember cutting my own skin to escape my eternal pain which I was getting on the thoughts of jungkook being with someone else...but slowly slowly sleeping on this hospital bed I realize that after I run away I remember getting the news of jungkook being alcoholic and sleeping pills same as me to escape his own pain but as I look around people having fun time with their family and enjoying their life I start realising how much jungkook used to crave this movements...these happiness of having family kids and enjoying family time

And after I'm dead maybe if he didn't try to move on from me he might just live his life like a dead person in my memories....

He needs to love himself now...

He needs to allow heal himself for once now because I know him way too much and I know after I'm going to be dead he will be numb but I don't want him to be numb not because of my selfishness 

If I died being selfish then my selfishness will die with me and there will be nothing but he will stay alive and carry the pain of my selfishness with him for ever

I will die being possessive over him but he will he alive loving my possessiveness

Which I don't want not when he's the only person who have been with me throught my ups and down so that now I'm leaving I want him to be happy I want to be alive in his heart so whenever he will miss me he will know I'm alive there somewhere inside him...

I smiled folding the letter that I worte but suddenly I start feeling pain in my chest, I looked around to find the bell which doctor Oh hyun have given to me in case I need something or something happen I press the bell but this pain was increasing minute by minute as I felt my breath getting uneven

And so i knew my time was up now..

I gripped the photo placing beside my pillow where the nurse and doctor run into the hospital room

YN!!!

Dr. Oh shouted in shock looking at my state my whole body was getting red but something was still left

D..Dr Oh...."I wisper, he got that I won't make it anymore while looking at the heart monitor as a tear escaped his eyes looking at me, he was like a father to me in these months..

Yes yn..." he said siting closer as tear start running down his cheeks

Please promise me one thing.....last time....." I said, my heart was slowly loosing it's beat now..

Please give this letter to J-jeon....jungkook..."I said as I pointed my eyes towards the table where I placed the letter, my hands were still clutching his photo.

Please sir...fulfill my l-last wish..." I wispered again, I won't make it to the next minute where i see Dr Oh nodding at me with his head down

And that was it....it was my end....end of my every suffering...

Hope we met again love.....let's meet again for the first time...let's fall in love again...and let's complete our incomplete story in our next life jungkook....

  And with that dankness surrounded
that girl followed by a ray of light
Which took her away from her every pain
Every suffering and every trauma
It was new again
The light took her to a new world
Where she opened her eyes in peace
with a smile which was genuine
and by her heart
she smiled again

The end

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Hello guys sorry not sorry for late updates I'm lazy as hell still u guys are giving me little bit attiontion so I'm writing for u guys hope u like this first short ff was happy ending so I thought let's give this one a emotional one hehe...don't be sad it's just a book be happy and enjoy and if u have any idea do give me cyz I'm out of ideas nowdays 🫂❤️Tc love u.