Jake Webber X Johnnie Guilbert Smut And Fluff

ISwearImClean(fluff)

(Edited to better make sense)

In 'who cares news'
I'll be a month clean Feb 27th this year:)

Anyway. Tw? This is cringe

Jakes pov:

I'm in tears.

Crying.

Like a fucking baby.

This was dated from last year.

But I'm still crying.

See I told Johnnie I was gonna clean up his room while he was watching TV, cause I was bored.

He said okay.

Now I'm in here.

I was cleaning out his closet and I found this folded up paper.

I was curious and opened it.

'February 12, 2023

Jake.
Thank you for being my number one support.
You mean to much to me.
You are the reason I wanted to keep living life.
But im bleeding out while writing this.

I cut deeper then I would like to admit.

I'm frantically writing.

I should have come to you but it's 3am.

I'm so sorry'

That's the end of I note.

I'm assuming that he cut himself, but went to deep.
And that he didn't wanna wake me up, scaring me having to call 911.

Or that he didn't wanna be sent off if he was saved.

What I don't understand is-

Why did he cut, and why is this written if he is still here?

I'm thankful he's still here, but I'm confused.

Was this supposed to be a prank?

I'm confused.

And crying.

The thought of losing my best friend is utterly heart shattering.

"Oh.. Jake." I snap my head to the sound.

Tears running down my face.

Johnnie was standing in the door way.

He looked heartbroken.

"Johnnie" I say.

Tears falling.

"I.." He started.

He was unsure of what to say.

"What's this?" I ask lifting the paper a little.

"It's.. It's nothing" He says walking up to me.

Taking it out of my hand and ripping it and throwing it away.

"Johnnie." I say.

I'm not sure what I'm asking.

But he seems to understand.

He inhales and exhales deeply.

He walks to his bed sitting down.

I follow and sit beside him.

"Last year. I... " There was a long pause.

"I cut myself... A-and I did it too deep... I was scared.
I didn't wanna scare you.
I grabbed a paper and pencil.. And wrote.. That was going to be my Accidental Suicide Note..." He said.

Tears continued to fall.
I was confused.

"Accident?" I ask.

"I passed out.. And woke up about 7 hours later... You never checked on me... Cause you know I always sleep in...
..
...
....
.....
I was on the floor when I woke up. My whole body felt numb" He said with a big pause.

"Why.... Didn't you tell me..." I say wiping my tears away as the continued to fall.

"I didn't want to upset you"

"Johnnie. Fuck dude. I'd be more upset at losing you then you coming to me asking for help." I say taking his hand into mine.

"I figured.. I'm sorry" He says, his eyes tearing up.

"If I lost you... I'd lose a piece of myself" I say looking at his hands.

Thats when I notice it.

God am I stupid.

Am I blind?

I let go of his hand and grab is left turning his arm.

Thick scars.

"I-im still here though" He said in a attempt to lightin the mood

"Johnnie..i know it's been a bit since it happened. But don't ever do that again.. And if you do.. Swear to me I'm the first person you go to. " I say looking up into his tear filled eyes.

"I won't. I'm doing better. I've got you. I realized how stupid I was being" He said smiling slightly

"Why did you do it?" I asked, my tears slowing.

"It was self hatred. I hated myself cause I felt unlovable...well...feel" He said sighing slightly.

"I love you" I say.

"I.."

"Johnnie... I love you.." I say placing my hand on his cheek.

"Don't ever leave me" I say moving his bangs out of his eyes slightly.

"I love you too.." He says.

I lean in and kiss him on the lips.

He was taken aback, but slowly kissed back.

I pulled away and looked at him.

"You haven't done that since then, right? " I say to him holding his face in between my hands.

"I swear I'm clean. It's just one of those scenes, when I'm away from you, I go insane, but when I'm with you, it's like Ecstasy." He says.

"Don't ever leave me"

"I'll be here." He said back leaning in and kissing me.

863 words

See what I did there?

No?

Well damn.. Anyway
Death of me
by Johnnie Guilbert

I- SWEAR- I'M- CLEAN-

IT'S JUST ONE- OF THOSE SCENES

THAT LEAVES YOU SO- CON-FUSED

YET SO- FUCK-ING AMU-SED

LIKE A SHIP UN-DERWATER

IT DOESN'T GET BETT-ER FROM HERE

and ECSTASY MENTION!?!?!?!?

I won't let you be the death of me this time
This doesn't have to end
We can have fun again
I swear I'm clean
it's just one of those scenes that leaves you so confused
Yet so fuckung amused
Like a ship under water it
doesn't get better from here.

Nvm lol

-kall