Poems and Prose and Girlhood

False Polaris

I thought you're my Polaris
because you promised you will be
but when I'm in darkness
you shifted your light away from me

you lightened up the path of another soul
while I am standing in this dark road alone
knowing nothing what to do
knowing nothing where to go

clueless about how to survive
in this unfair and cruel world
clueless about how to find
the way back again to my old self

back before I crossed this road
that's it if I could, even I know I couldn't
I would just stay behind my walls and borders
I'll just stay unmoving, shivering with cold

because when I choose you to be the light
in my world wherein everyday is night
you just gave me something to regret
as you let my heart which I've just knitted recently
shivering and shattered to pieces I don't know how
could I knit back again to its orginal state

Estl. 07-12-22