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20. Did You Piss On It Yet?

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"I don't really like that one" Bella bites her lip "It makes your boobs look small, and we all know they are not" She chuckles, earning a smack on the arm by my mother and a glare from my dad "Che diavolo?" She screeches to my mom.

"Shh" My mom shushes her "You look great honey, but that is not the dress" She tuts, and I nod.

"I only have two more" I sigh "I guess I'll be back" 

"Sorriso Amore, dovresti essere contento" My mom says, and I fake a smile just for her.

"So che mamma" I nod, walking in to change into another dress. I pull up the long mermaid dress, with a sweetheart neckline. I don't like the way it looks on me, but nonetheless I walk out with it on, my Mom seeming to love it.

"You look gorgeous" She gushes.

"Le piace?" Bella asks me, and I sigh with a frown "Sapevo che non l'hai fatto" She chuckles.

"She looks great" My mom scoffs.

"But she obviously doesn't like it, I mean look at her" Bella motions to me, I don't know what it is, but for some reason I become very emotional and before I ca stop myself, I'm running back to the dressing room crying. 

"Reagan" I hear Bella call "Please stop crying" She whispers once she finds me "I have Austin on the phone" She says, handing me the phone. She walks out, mumbling how she'll give me some privacy.

"Hello?" 

"Rae, baby are you okay?" He asks, his voice showing his worry.

"No, no I'm not" I frown "Nothing looks right on me, and everything I hate my mom loves and I just hate it" I sob, and he coos.

"Baby, stop pleasing others" He whispers "This day is all about you, don't go out of your way to make your mom happy, make yourself happy. Your mom will be happy just to see you happy" 

"I don't know" 

"Do what makes you happy before others, be selfish. This is all about you" He says "I love you so so much, Rae and I'll see you later" 

"I love you" I whisper, hanging up the phone. Bella comes back, and I hand her back her phone, catching her wrist before she leaves.

"I need to tell you something, but you can't tell anyone because I don't know if it's real or not"

"Okay, tell me" She says, and I take a deep breath.

"I think I'm pregnant again" 

"What?" She screeches and I smack my hand over her mouth.

"Shh" I shush her "I don't know if I actually am, but I might be"

"How do you know?" She asks.

"I feel the same way I did when I got pregnant with Toby" I sigh, running my fingers through my hair.

"Oh god" 

"This wedding..." I trail off, looking down at my stomach "Needs to happen fast" 

"But that's going to be so bad, you can't honeymoon if you're pregnant" 

"Austin and I didn't plan on honeymooning for a while anyways" I shrug.

"Well then, let's not waste time, so slide that last dress on Bambino" She winks, walking out of the dressing room. I pull on the final dress, my jaw dropping at my reflection. The dress is perfect. I walk out to my mom, dad and Bella, a bright smile on my face, a complete contrast to how I left them.