𝘛𝘏𝘌 𝘚𝘊𝘏𝘖𝘖𝘓 𝘎𝘐𝘙𝘓 𝘈𝘕𝘋 𝘛𝘏𝘌 𝘚𝘊𝘈𝘔𝘔𝘈

Finalized

Tae's POV
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It's been weeks since I've spoken to mia or even left the house I've been inside trying to figure out how to get her back it's obvious she doesn't want me back

My father has been calling me but I've been ignoring them my friends have been trying to reach me but if I don't see her name on the screen I'm not picking up I absolutely loved her

"So why did you cheat,?" My subconscious asks

I still don't know that

Oh well you never know what you have until you lose it huh?

Yeah

I sigh laying on the bed staring up at the ceiling my eyes focus on nothing but the fan spinning is blurry as I stare blankly at the ceiling

I feel so drained and tired mentally and emotionally I haven't eaten in days to mention the state of my body physically I just can't seem to find the motivation to get out of bed

All I want is just for her to come back to me if I could apologize to her and fix us I would but she made it clear she doesn't want anything else to do with me

It hurts me thinking about how much we shared and how it's all gone in a blink of the eye

I shouldn't have cheated it was just in the heat of the moment I hate the fact that I let whatever happened between me and brit happen regarding everything she did to me

Yet I fell into her subduction and her web of lies and deception. It was so beautiful yet painful the outcome of the whole situation

I have to get over her eventually but I just can't seem to get the way she looked at me when she found out what I did

The way her eyes dimmed with disappointment made my heart ache the way her smile faded the second she say me and brit

I hated the way her eyes was filled with love slowly change to hatred. How her body language closed off from me from being open and happy to cold and disgusted

It's not my fault entirely it takes two to tango...

"But you could've said no," my subconscious taunts

You're right

"But you didn't," he says shaking his head disappointedly

I know

If I could do anything to reverse time I would but I can't because what is done is already done

I loved her I wanted a future with her everything there was to have but now she's gone and it's all my fault

I just wished it wasn't how it is I wish I could change everything I wish she would pick up the phone I wish she didn't find out I wish I hadn't did what I did to her

I just wish I could do this all over again....but too bad for me it's not possible so I have to live with the consequences of my own actions

I blamed british for the whole situation when it happened but I had to realize that I gave consent to her so it's both of our faults

If I just had said no or not bring her to my house all if this wouldn't have happened and I'd still have mia in my arms in my life and here right now with me

The sound of a cough echoes in the silent room the feeling of my chest rising and falling made me realize it left my lips the feeling intensifies when a abrupt sharp pain stings me

I cough again and again and again my body tingles and a wave of nausea hits me I can't move my body due to the fact I've been laying in this position for over 3 days I haven't moved or said anything