girls love girls & boys ~ PIPER ROCKELLE

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tw: panic attack,

- piper sat down on her bed trying to figure out something,  she couldn't understand it,  

she felt those same exact things with lev, but didn't know why she felt that ways towards her

maybe she was finally going insane?

or not,

she sighed heavily watching as the rain poured down over her balcony,   she picked at the skin of her nails,  waiting for y/n and Emily to come back,

she felt angry inside her, whenever they were doing a prank on the squad, she had seen emily touching her thigh very close to her inner thigh,

she felt jealous, she could say.

but it was for the video right?, right..

her thoughts were brutally interrupted, whenever lev had snaked his hands around his girlfriend waist,

"why haven't you been uploading?" lev asked her,  looking at her, "i just wanted to hang out with y/n, before i could post on youtube," she mumbled enough for lev to hear her,

Lev nodded moving her closer,  she felt tense,  she knew that half of her feeling for lev were mostly coming to an end,

but she didn't wanna admit it, at all, she loved them both,  dearly and passionately,

she couldn't choose, 

her heart began to pound thinking more aggressively,  she didn't realize by the time they had gotten home, she was having a much worse panic attack,

she harshly moved levs hands away from her waist ignoring the yells from him, making her way in the bathroom,  locking the door,

trying to calm her breathing down, she had never felt this much worse then 2021,

- y/n smiled talking with emily,  she chose to ignore the footsteps upstairs,

"we really missed you," emily smiled with joy,  as her hand went down to her thigh,

y/n of course didn't mind, she just wished she didn't do it front of everybody,  emily stopped talking as lev had came downstairs out of breath,

"piper having a panic attack," lev said out of breath,  causing everyone to go upstairs,  lucky none of the parents were home,

Y/n had gotten up from her spot,  running upstairs, opening piper door,

knocking on the bathroom door, "piper it's me, just open the door & we'll talk okay?" she softly said towards her,

her heart broke hearing the crys from the bathroom, they were muffled but she could still hear them, 

jenna had knocked, "its just the squad, none of the parents aren't home, we love you pipes, just open the door please," she muttered at the end,

Piper opened the door grabbing the blonde and locking the door once again,

they rest of them sighed waiting for them to come out already,

-piper sighed sitting on the counter top of the bathroom,  "just tell me pipes," Jenna asked her, "You guys wouldn't like me as the same," she muttered,

"Piper, we all love you, very much. you are our bestfriend. & would do pretty much anything for you," her tears swelled looking at her,

"i know you would, i just.."

"i fallen for my bestfriend, that i thought wouldn't"

jenna looked at her,  thinking about all those times, that y/n & piper were messing around,   she began smiling, "I'm happy for you piper, you just gotta figure a way to tell her"

Her head turned to her, "y-your not mad?" she stuttered, "of course i'm not mad, i'm happy for you,"

"but what about lev? what do i tell him," Piper had said biting her nails, "He will understand,  tell him next week & tell her a week after you tell lev, They will always love you, i promise" 

Jenna smiled as she was squeezed into a hug, "Thank you, really" piper told her smiling gently,  "Your welcome"

- piper had walked out the bathroom as everyone smiled hugging her, and asking her what was wrong,

she definitely wanted to ask her out on camera, but she would have gotten hate for faking it,  & had to break up with lev,  so she make a video about that instead,

her eyes met with y/n,  seeing the tear stain on her face,  she hugged her putting her head in her shoulders,

"i'm sorry for worrying you," piper  whispered in her ear,   as y/n had pulled her more and more in the hug, "It fine," she muttered,

They both pulled back,  y/n smiled as she had watched piper get pulled in a hug by lev, 

giving the girl a kiss.

she rolled her eyes, as they both pulled back, she walked up to her whispering in her ear, "going downstairs" she smiled at her before leaving,

-  y/n sighed as she spotted a a person sitting at the table,  noticing it was jentzen,  she quickly turned around towards the front door,

"already seen you,"

"don't care," she muttered.

she turned around seeing he was already in front of her,  she let a breath out seeing how close he was to her,

"where ellie," she asked him looking up at him, "she at home," he told her,

"can we talk, about it upstairs? please i just need to see you," He asked her grabbing her hand gentle,  rubbing his cold fingers across her raw scars,

"you ruined that chance months ago, and hell you don't deserve it now," she said as she had removed his hand away from her hands,

a/n:  [EDITED!!] ; hi, so i haven't been uploading because i broke my phone months ago, so yeah, enjoy