sim.jaeyun → reality show

5

Today was a stressful day, I didn't post the Instagram statement yet, I decided to go home first and wash up and just try and feel better about myself.

It was 9pm in Korea, and I laid on my bed, with my cat, who seemed oddly attached today. Maybe it's because I hadn't seen him in a while.

I sighed, the hate wouldn't hinder a single bit, I reckon that it'd cool down in a week, but right now? Still a pretty heated topic, even dispatch had got on the news.

Somehow words were continually twisted and turned, such articles made me feel utterly confused to how conclusions were even made like these.

'HAERIN JANG AND JAKE SIM HAVE A SECRET FAMILY?'

'THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN HAERIN AND JAEYUN: EXPLAINED FULLY'

'SUBTLE HINTS YOU DIDN'T NOTICE ABOUT HAERIN AND JAKE'S RELATIONSHIP'

I clicked on the last article, wondering what the hell was going on with the subtle hints. It was a ten minute video, of clips from concerts, lives, videos that had zero correlation with the two of us.

One point was that I had a specific way of doing a heart with my hands, and in a video, Jake did the exact same heart.

Apparently that meant we were clearly dating.

I groaned, placing my face in my duvet as I took time to think over my thoughts. Maybe I should just start crying on a live and disappear from any social media platform for a bit.

I chuckled to myself, no, that would seem so unlike me.

Instead, I made a video. It wasn't a long one, just a simple one minute video.

"Hello Petals, and hello to those who are curious of the recent articles and words being spread about me." I cleared my throat, looking around my room as I recorded myself, "I want to address these claims being made about me and all the hateful comments I have received."

As an idol, it would be like a death penalty if I mentioned another member of any group in a live. I had to be careful of my words, and as much as I wanted to mention the Jake situation, that would definitely heat up the conspiracies more.

Instead, I had to resort to the plastic surgery allegations and all of that stuff.

"I have not had any plastic surgery, I have had no work done to my face, and I do not appreciate the unkind words being made about me. I would appreciate it if you guys did not spread such false information around, as it had really upset me." It really bummed me that I couldn't even mention Jake, "All of the claims being made about me are false, please do not believe what you see on the internet. Other than that, thank you for being there for me Petals, goodnight!"

I ended the video at that. I think I had rewatched it a couple times, just staring into space. I don't know why, but I just wanted to not post anything, but I know management would kill me if I just went silent like this.

I hesitantly pressed the post button, posting it to my main story, where millions of people could see it, hear it, screenrecord it, repost it again.

Every post was like a close call with death as an idol. The wrong words, or if you're at a place an idol was at too, then you're already under headlines of scandals.

I didn't open my phone for another hour, just out of fear of the public reaction. I could already sense that it'd be bad, and just to make matters worse, I received a phone call.

From none other, but my boss.

I picked it up, as much as I didn't want to.

"Hey, why'd you call?" I asked, swallowing hard.

"I watched your story, good, that is a good video. Keep it up, we'll get the Jake scandal sorted, just keep his name out of your mouth Haerin." Thankfully, it wasn't anything negative.

My heart eased, hearing his words were ones of appreciation, and not scolding and anger. I had dedicated almost five years of my life as an idol, there was no way I'd cancel myself and ruin my whole career over a five minute interaction.

I checked my Instagram, and I think I should've just completely never opened my phone at all.

Not only were there more comments, raging with hate.

'SHE'S ADDRESSING THE PLASTIC SURGERY SCANDALS BECAUSE THE JAKE SCANDAL IS TRUE'

'WE ALL KNOW YOU HAVE HAD WORK DONE'

'YOU DON'T HAVE TO LIE ABOUT SURGERY, IT DIDN'T FIX THAT FACE OF YOURS ANYWAYS'

'HOW IS SHE THE VISUAL? IS THIS JAKE'S TYPE? REALLY?'

But also, a burst of followers, and one follower in specific that almost made me throw my phone out of my window, and me along with it too.

jaeyunsim has just followed you! follow back?