I was changing earlier and caught my reflection in the mirror for the first time in a while... have I really let myself go? where did all this jiggle come from? I swear I fit these jeans just fine only last week ..
going to meet up with a few friends. Since my smaller clothes got a wee bit tight I wore my bigger things to downplay what little Ive gained. turtleneck and jeans, which ordinarily would've been great to wear. I didn't want to spend too much money, so i made sure to have a lot of food beforehand.
I sat down, and my jeans were straining quite badly, my upper belly fat pooling over the harsh indent of the pants I was wearing. these were the biggest pair I have! I can't believe I've filled them out this much!
Regardless, I was there for a meal, and a meal I got. The friends I was meeting with both got ceaser salads, where I got a pizza. I indulged, oil dripping down my chin as my tummy pooled lower and lower. I eventually unbuttoned my jeans. My friends were too polite to say anything (to my face), but I could see them looking at where my flat tummy used to be. I was so involved in the greasy cheese pizza, I wasn't paying attention to the looks everyone was giving me. I have a fast metabolism, you can tell, right?
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I stood up to get another plate full, and there was an unusual breeze down my midsection. I thought nothing of it, obviously the shirt I'm wearing was shrunk, nothing to stress over. once I got the third or fourth plate, I started to wonder..
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I was stuffed after about two pizzas with a few sodas, and had just finished the forth plate when my friends finished their first. I got a little embarrassed , as I got the cheque ready they were whispering. "should we say something?" "if we don't, who will? She's gained so much in such a small time, it's unhealhy" "maybe it's just the freshman 15, nothing drastic" I looked up to see both sets of eyes trained on my midsection "you and I both know it's more than just the freshman 15"my friends whispered.
My cheeks turned red. I wasnt sure if they knew I was listening, but I immediately stopped chewing and got ready to leave. I haven't gained more than maybe 5-10 pounds so I'm not sure why they'd say this. I'm still a healthy weight, just eating a little bit more than usual. I was very hungry. I went home and took a picture, to make sure that I was still skinny. I was sucking in, which is why I look so small
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then I wanted to see what I look like.. properly. so I took a breath and took a picture. This is shocking! there is no way I'm this big! I'm sure it's just a strange camera angle, so I really don't need a diet.
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how is my belly hanging down this far? Ive only had McDonald's a few times this week, and I barely have other unhealthy foods. I walk each day around the block. I am the picture of health, but my 'friends' keep poking fun at my belly, and when I move suddenly all the fat on my body shakes like crazy.
Taylor was visiting me earlier, and even though I told her I had lunch, she insisted I have some of her homemade lasagna. I was trying my best to look skinny, but it was quite difficult after all those meals. she might've seen, but I'm not sure. does it look like I've gained weight? more than last time I've updated? please let me know if you think I should go on a diet
