Posted: 09.26.2015
Edited: 11.15.2015
I'm sorry for the really late update, but I've been really busy :(
I put a picture of Cara Delevingne on one of the parts but never told you she plays Bella lololol.
| R E A G A N G I O R D A N O |
I sigh quietly, unable to fall asleep for the eighth night in a row. For the past eight days I've heard nothing from Austin. I know it's because of the kiss, the guilt eating him alive. Part of me is upset he's not calling to talk about what happened. But the other part is wondering why the hell I'm left to fend for myself while carrying his child. It needs to stop.
I pick up my phone, dialing is number and waiting for him to pick up. It rings and rings, but there's no answer. I scoff, and open up our text conversation, starting a new message.
To: Migliore Amico
So you ignore me? What the fuck have I done? I'm carrying your fucking child and you decide that you're going to ignore me when I may possibly need you. Fuck you Mahone! Fuck you.
I frown, my arms folded across my chest. I wait and wait for my phone to go off with a message from Austin, him telling me how sorry he is, but of course, that moment never comes.
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"What are you doing Reagan?" I huff to myself, looking in the mirror. My eyes have dark purple circles around them, my hair is a mess, and I look like death "This isn't good for either of us, is it?" I look down at my swollen stomach, rubbing my hand over the bump.
I walk down to my kitchen, making myself a grilled cheese. While eating it, Austin bursts through my door a nervous look on his face.
"Oh so you are alive?" I roll my eyes.
"I am. Reagan, we need to talk" He deadpans, and my stomach stirs in nervousness.
"What about?"
"The thing that happened a week ago" He says slowly, and I nod urging him to continue "I think we should forget it happened. It didn't mean anything, I just got caught up in the moment. From now until this baby is born it's strictly about the baby, nothing more" He explains, and my heart drops.
I fight back the tears "What about being best friends?" I mutter pathetically.
"It's strictly about the baby" He repeats with a shrug.
"But Austin-"
"Reagan I'm not changing my mind, now I need to go" He turns to leave but I catch his wrist.
"Austin please don't! You can't do this to me" I plead.
"I can't do this to Ashton"
"Tell me you didn't feel anything!" I demand, and his eyes widen.
"What? You've got to me kidding me"
"I'm not. Tell me you didn't feel anything when we kissed, and I'll stop and the only time we talk is when it has to do with the baby" I demand more strict.
"Reagan stop" He sighs.
"Do it" I grit, a few tears escaping.
"Stop Reagan please" He whispers.
"No" I shake my head "I knew you couldn't s-"
"I didn't feel anything when we kissed. It meant nothing to me" He shrugs coldly, turning on his heel and leaving my house. I stand there in shock staring at the space he once occupied.
I didn't think he'd actually say it.
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"Love is pain" I sigh, leaning my head against the wall "And we'll do it again" I turn to Bella who's sitting on the floor "Why do we do it again?" I ask rhetorically.
"Because you have feelings" She answers, even though I hadn't expected one.
"I wish I didn't. I should've known, I mean he has a boyfriend, so why the hell do I find the need to like him. I've wasted 14 years of my life waiting for a guy that would never want me" I rest my hand on the edge of the bath tub.
"Don't say he'll never want you because you don't know that"
"But he won't! He said it himself! It meant nothing" I exasperate.
"Babe, it'll all be okay" She stands up "Now I'm going to go and make you some bomb ass food, while you finish" She kisses my head, leaving the bathroom.
I finish up in the bath. I get out, wrapping a towel around my body. I walk to my bedroom, putting on a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt. I walk down to the kitchen seeing Bella at the stove.
"I made you a cup of tea, I already put milk and sugar in it" She smiles.
My emotions that I'd been holding in all day, all of a sudden spill out of me as I burst into tears. Bella is at my side almost immediately, her hands rubbing my back as I cry into her shoulder.
"I hate everything" I cry.
"Don't we all" She sighs, her head leaning on mine.
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Hi!
I didn't go to homecoming this year so yah :)
Love from a nugget, Bad_Boy_Hemmo
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