I remember the smell of detergent.
The one you always used. The kind that didn't disappear after a few days of clothing being washed.
I remember the sight of smiles.
Making jokes and acting silly with each other. Never caring what others thought of our humor.
I remember walking together.
The hallways were always our trails. Amoung other peers, we enjoyed each others company.
I remember the day we finished.
Our last time walking through the school. Our last time sharing amazing moments and finishing school together.
I don't remember when things got bad.
Her, growing busy with college. You, making amazing friends. Both of you growing and spreading your wings.
I don't remember when I became an anchor.
I always held onto you both, like a child holding its mother. Keeping you from the reach of LIFE. Of being an adult.
I don't remember hurting you.
It was either New Years Eve or 4th of July. I said some things I can't remember saying. The words of you saying I've hurt you. Made you cry.
I don't remember wanting your affection, your love.
December 21. You spoke of things I knew you'd say. I'll never forget how you made me see the world. How you cared and loved me when I thought bad about myself.
The days pass by, and so does my memories of you. I can no longer call you as a "best friend" anymore. I could no longer tell you all the stuff I do, or have hidden from everyone. Life just doesn't feel real to me anymore. You were there when I couldn't tell my family because of how things have gotten between them.
You were my anchor, and I have made you lose your light. If it weren't for me, you'd all be happier. I wouldn't have become someone toxic. Maybe then, I would've disappeared without hurting anyone. Probably would've made things much simpler.
You were my Best Friends. My greatest Gifts.
And now, I have said my final goodbyes. I may have silenced the conversation. I may have not said goodbye. But I do wish you the best. I wish her the best. You both deserve to have a life. Without me being a hassle or an anchor. Good luck. Have a safe and swell life.
Sincerely,
Єcнσ 𐌼ιʓʋκι
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
Life Of Reality
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