Déjà vu | ✓

- CHAPTER 9 -

[Present time]
(At the beach)

~ | H I M | ~

Any relation is like a habit,
Even if the habit is bad,
we can't let it go easily.
Even if the relation is bad,
we can't let it go easily.

But now it was the time,
letting go of a person,
of a relation,
of a strong bond,
is very hard.
but letting go of the memories,
is the hardest.

Let anything happen,
Memories do not fade,
They stay.
Sometimes good memories make is sad,
And sometimes bad will make us miss.
it will make us realise what we lost.

Sitting at the beach silently,
with our emotions taking over, with none of us speaking a word, with just listening to the waves,
Together,
for the last time.

There was this one time,
where we were sitting just like this,
but with a comfortable silence, with a soft smile dancing on our lips for no reason,
With love in our eyes.

The time when we were sitting so close that we can never let each other go,
And now we are afraid to even touch each other.

Things changes very fast,
But never in my life I imagined it to change this much.

Maybe you are thinking this is so easy for me,
But I know how it's not.

I promised to slay your demons,
I became one.
I promised to comfort you when you had nightmares,
I became the reason behind them.
I promised to never hurt you,
I did.
But I also promised to leave when I hurt you,
Maybe it's late, but I am fulfilling at least one promise of mine.

But I wasn't the only one,
Even you knew that.
The small actions of yours hurted more then the big ones.
The small disinterest led to big fights.
The small communication was lost.

" I guess you're right. This had to happen " you spoke these words after a long break.

" Maybe this was our forever? " You spoke with an amused tone.

Your eyes glistening with water.
It reflected way too many emotions,
Or maybe I noticed them now.

" But if this has to end, why is it so difficult? " I said out of frustration.

" Because we are ending a relation of 13 years. We might be married for some years but we have memories of 13 years. It is difficult. Very difficult "

Even things running for a long time has to end.
Atleast in our case.

" But that is going to keep us happy, I guess. We weren't the endgame. But this is our endgame. " I said and a slight nod was all i could see as your reaction.

" Right. This is the end. This is how our story ends. Not so simple and sweet. " You said and laughed humorlessly.

" What do you think, we could have saved this if we shared our thoughts and what was in our mind? " I asked and your head turned to my side.

Our eyes locked,
Another moment of deja vu.
Another moment where the scene was same,
The story was different.

" Maybe " was all you said.

" Can we not start over? " You said after a sigh.

" What am I even saying ofcourse not. It's just too hard to digest. I'm losing my bestfriend too " you continued.

" We lost our bestfriends long ago, I guess " I said.

" Yeah. Right " you said and left a small sigh.

" I'll sign the papers, now. I kept you waiting for so long " you said.

" This wait was needed "

I passed the papers to you again,
You opened the cap of pen,
Looking at me,
Like Staring right into my soul.
Then nodded to yourself and signed them.

" Here " you passed them to me with a small sad smile.

I signed them too,
Without looking at you,
Because the thoughts were enough for me to distract.

I kept the papers back into the bag and left out a long breathe.

" I finally left your back " I cracked a dangerous joke.

" I finally left your home " you replied with another dangerous joke.

I faked a laughed as soon as the realisation hit me,
No more having you around,
No more telling you about my day,
No more fights about silly things.

This is how we are going to live,
Away from each other,
Without eachother,
But happily.

I self doubted it a for a second. Will that really happen?

We once couldn't imagine life without being together and now we are going to live it.

A small tear escaped my eye,
But I was quick enough to wipe it,
And you were quicker to notice it.

" I'm sorry " you said, your eyes softened.

" I'm sorry too " I responded and you nodded.

" Let's go now. " You said and we stood up.

" Can.. I have a hug? For the last time? " I hesitate to ask.

" I was going to ask for the same " you replied.

We were in each other's embrace after a very long time. For the very last time.

" I'll miss you, a lot " I said and a soft sob was heard to me.

A sad smile appeared on my face on the thought that,
We thought we won,
But we actually lost,
In saving this beautiful relationship.

But at the same time,
Endings can lead to beautiful things too,
Endings can be beautiful too.
And sunset was a proof to that.
Which we were experiencing.

I said I couldn't afford to lose you, but I even failed to win over you,
Because you aren't any game,
But life is.

Our hug again was a moment of deja vu.
But the fact that amuses me is
We know it is deja vu,
We know things are different from the last time,
We know it's going in a wrong direction,
But we still can't stop it.
Because maybe It has to happen,
And it will happen.

Deja vu cannot be stopped,
It can only be experienced.

- T H E E N D -

An end to beautiful relation of theirs,
An end to this beautiful journey of ours.

And also do share what you thought you learned and I tried to convey from this story>

I mean it can be seen from different perspectives so different answers are what I'm waiting for.

Anyways,
I hope you enjoyed and liked this one <3