having his BABY

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Chapter 4

Sail Crescent POV...

"W-what happened?" Tanong ko.

He sigh. "Do you still remember when you go to the hospital one month ago?" Napahinto ako.

I think. And when the idea comes to my mind, i bit my lower lip and slowly nod. Minasahe nya ang dulo ng ilong nya at pumikit.

"That's the day when my cell put inside your body." He said. Napakunot ang noo ko.

What does he mean by that?

"A-anong ibig mong sabihin?" Tanong ko ulit.

"I have this woman that i paid to be my child's mother but she tried to leave after getting the money." Sabi nito na mas lalo lang ikinagulo ng utak ko.

"Ano ang kinalaman noon saakin?" Nakakunot noong tanong ko.

"Let me finish my sentence." Sabi nya kaya tumahimik ako.

"My mom was forcing me to marry a woman I don't even know, she's saying i need a heir for my damn business, but I don't want to get married. I just don't want to. That's why i decided to just paid a woman who can carry my child for months and after that she can go, the operation will be done by the very time you go to Dr. Almiyo's office, the nurse who pulled you had no sleep at all that's why she mistakes you from the woman i paid. Everyone in the operating room was so exhausted and no one expect that you're not her because no one was to be there at that time expect to that woman i paid." Mahabang paliwanag nya.

Huminga ako ng malalim. "So, you're saying just because they are exhausted they forgot to check who i was at basta nalang na isinalang sa operasyon ng hindi man lang chine-check kung sino talaga ako?" I asked and he nod.

Minasahe ko ang sentido ko. "Wow." Ang bigat naman nun sa dibdib ko!

"Ako pa ang iintindi just because they are exhausted?!— and they call themselves a fucking doctor?!" Galit na tanong ko sa hangin.

"Do they think having a child is just nothing?!— Having a child even for a married couple is so precious, pinaplano pa nila lahat! Pinaguusapan tapos ganito lang yung sa'kin?!" Lumabas na naman ang luha ko kaya hinila nya ako at niyakap. Though it doesn't felt like Blaze hug but it sure comforts the hell out of me.

"I love to have a family too but not this way!" Sabi ko pa habang umiiyak.

"It was my dream to have a child and love that child until my very end and now i have this child I don't even plan?— you're so unfair. Ang sama mo naman. How could you do this?" Para akong winawasak. It fucking hurts just to think i am having a kid with this stranger man. Parang ayaw ko pero wala na akong choice dahil nandito na. Ayaw kong ayaw ko nito dahil anak ko ito pero nandito na. Gusto kong iplano pero nandito na.

"Babayaran mo ako? Para kunin ang anak mo?— I didn't want this but it was just a matter of time before i care for this. Mahal ko na agad e. Tapos kukunin mo?" Iyak ko pa.

Hinagod nya ang likod ko at hindi nag salita.

"Every night, i already thought if ever i am really pregnant, hindi ko na aalamin ang Papa nya but i would just give him all i have and you're saying this child is yours? And then what would you do?— you're going to use him for your business?— i won't let you do that. Sa'kin to, anak ko rin to." Naimukmok ko ang mukha ko sa dibdib nya.

He still remain silent while i keep crying.

Yeah. Hindi ako nasasaktan ng ganito kung hindi ko ito mahal. Hindi sana ako nasasaktan ng ganito kung wala akong pakealam. I know, deep inside me i was happy. I was really happy,. because having a child is one of my biggest dream. Pangarap ko yun e. Ayaw kong mabali wala yon. When i heard what Blaze said about me being pregnant, masaya na ako e. Dahil hindi na inportante saakin kung sino ang ama ng batang dinadala ko. Mahalaga sa'kin ang pamilya, but I don't even have the slightest idea how i become pregnant, ang iniisip ko nalang ay kung paano ko sasabihin kay Dad na buntis nga ako. I would tell Blaze to act like a father of my child, hindi na rin namin kailangan gumawa ng anak just to prove that we were married after our marriage. Pero ngayon wala na. I know somehow i wanted to use the child, but in a way he doesn't have to know and to be treated like a trash.