Soothing like the Stars

~12~

×Tweek×

Here I am, Tweek Tweak, sitting on floor with one of my great fears; Craig Tucker. We've been sitting here playing video- well I watched him play video games. I stared intensely at the floor as he went on about the game and cheats I could use if I ever get the game. I shouldn't be afraid of Craig, but I just am. The school bully is sitting here playing video games with one of the biggest losers at school!

Not mentioning how unstable I am. Not in a murderous way! Just in an abnormal sense of way. I felt my face calm as I felt a heavy emotion hit me.

I'm sad.

I guess it's just that knowing that I'm never normal and that I won't be enough for someone hurt. I can't change who I am, even if I tried to pretend. It would be too much pressure anyways... But if I'm not normal to anyone- n-not even to my patents then who can I be normal too? Or can I find someone who can accept my quirks and actually love ME for myself.

I remember when I was younger my mom and dad always told me that I needed to love myself before loving anyone else.. Maybe that can apply to my life now? But even I don't accept or like myself any bit. Who would? If by any chance Craig is my soulmate then there would need to be trust, communication, and care for each other. W-we could care.. I'm not so persuaded with trust and Craig isn't one to talk or get into his emotions.

Could we even work in a relationship? I mean come on! I'm gay and he's straight- a homophobe at that! We would just hurt each other and clash with one another. We wouldn't work in a relationship.. But if we did.. Would it be worth the pain that has come into our lives to finally be ourselves and to be together?

"Tweek" I gasped as I heard Craig say my name. His hand resting on my messy hair made me red. I looked over at him barely, his face read nothing. "I've been trying to ask you a question for the past few minutes. Have you even been listening at all?" Craig asked his voice shifting from confused to upset.

"I-I zoned ou-out..." I quickly stuttered. "Oh.. Well I asked if you wanted to hold Stripes" Craig said, going back to being monotoned. "Stripes?" I questioned. And as quickly as I asked. He shoved a Guinea Pig in my face. "This is my Guinea Pig Stripes, Stripes this is Tweek Tweak, the coffee shop boy" Craig said introducing us. I felt hot at what Craig called me. If you're looking for a reason why I don't have one!

"Oh.. H-hi Stripes" I stuttered as I gave a small wave to the rodent. "Here, hold this hand out like this and put this hand here.. " Craig grabbed my hand and wrists as he gently placed Stripes into my hand. He shuffled closer and sat against me as I practically cradled Stripes.

Stripes stayed still in my hand, seemingly getting ready to sleep. The thought of her sleeping made me yawn, making Craig chuckle. "You just had coffee, how the hell are you sleepy?" "Haha, guess my mom drugged me" Craig laughed at my joke, he genuinely laughed.

I stared at him with a smile, I probably looked dumbwitted and in love but.. For the second part I am. I think I've fallen for Craig Tucker..