Rachel's Blues

chapter 3

3 pm

When I made it home all I could do was run to my room and think. Rachel oh my god was that you are you really alive or am I going crazy I thought to myself as a stared at the picture of me and her, Im crazy I have to be I sighed as I flopped back onto my bed, what I had saw was all I could think about as I stared out my big open window, that girl my god she looked nearly like a twin to Rachel accept she had darkish brown hair and Rachel a brownish blonde hair but still it wasn't much of a difference from Rachel, should I tell someone what I saw, no they would never believe me, they already think I'm crazy and that I belong in a mental hospital but I could just give it a shot, I know me and Sarah just got into a big fight but she's my best friend and it has never taken us long to make up, I mean just ask Rachel she'll say and I quote "those two are like two peas in a pot, they can repair there friendship faster than the flash can travel the universe not even me and meadow could do that" Sarah is my best friend and I need someone to talk to about this and she always listens ,I grabbed my phone and clicked on her number as the phone rung I couldn't help but feel nervous soon the ringing stop and a voice came over the phone, what do you want Emory Sarah's fustersed voice boomed through the cell phone, Sarah I have something to tell you but first let me start out by saying that I'm sorry, I shouldn't have yelled at you, your my best friend and I never want something like a disagreement to get in the way of our friendship, I was in the wrong and you were only trying to help me and make me feel better but my grief and emotions got in the way of me seeing that, again I'm so sorry I voiced as the other line stayed silent for while causing me to tense up um Sarah are still on the line I asked confused

2pm Sarah's pov
After me and Emmys argument we said somethings we didn't mean and she ran out of the house. oh boy I messed  up i thought to my self as a sat on my bed looking down at my pink rug that had a blue nail polish stain on it, from when Emmy and I where 10 we were trying to paint our nails and Rachel and meadow came in and started bothering us, Rachel had pushed Emmy in a joking way which caused Emmy to knock over the nail polish bottle causing it to spill all over my Brand knew pink rug, I remember being so upset that I cried about it yeah I know it was such a silly thing to cry about but Emmy apologized and hugged me, even though it wasn't really her fault or a big deal just like this isn't her fault or a big deal, I was the one to start the argument about Rachel knowing how much it would upset her, just like Rachel was the one to cause Emmy to spill the nail polish even though it would upset me , gosh I thought to myself I'm such a bad friend I huffed.SARAH COME DOWN STAIRS PLEASE ME AND YOUR FATHER WOULD LIKE TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT SOMETHING my mom yelled breaking my chain of thought and causing me to jump COMING MOM I yelled back as I got up and made my way through the halls and down down the stairs were I saw my parents sitting in the leaving room.  this was weird to me because my mom and dad have been going through a rough time since April of last year and they couldn't last a day in a room together without fighting. yeah what's going on I asked as I sat on the couch they looked at me nervously. what were you and Emmy fighting about they asked umm stuff I replied confused onto why they were concerned about my argument with my best friend. what kind of stuff my mom asked moving next to me. I didn't reply I just stared at them in confusion. what kind of stuff sweetie my mom asked again this time with more concern while my father just sat there looking back and forth between us. i sighed me and Emmy were arguing about Rachel i I replied,but It was nothing I reassured will I know it's been hard for Emmy since Rachel passed but if she's starting things maybe you should spend sometime apart my dad suggested. woah what I yelp as I stood up glaring at him who said Emmy caused anything who said I wasn't the problem you also think Emmy is a bad influence but she's not you've known her since she was a kid I spat woah sweetie come down your father didn't mean it that way oh yes he did I said and stop defending him aren't you mad at him I ask glaring at her Sarah listen I- she was cut of by me yelling don't I yelled I'll just be in my room I shouted as I ran upstairs to my room i slammed the door and jump onto my bed and cuddle my pillow. Gosh I huffed why are they like this I thought to my self. Ring ring ring the sound of my phone ringing. I looked over behind me to grab it in brung it up to my face it was Emmy. I hesitated for a bit before answering it, I feel bad for what happened between us but after that fight with my parents i didn't feel like dealing with this right now,but decided to answer it anyways, what do you want Emory I greeted with  a flustered voice, before I could proceed with my sentence I was cut off by Emmy apologizing about everything, as she apologized I couldn't help but feel that same gilt I felt before talking to her. As she continued I listen and stayed silent.

Emmy pov
As Sarah didn't respond I felt my stomach starting to drop. before I could beg her to respond back she did. Emmy look I'm sorry okay I was the one who was over stepping, I know Rachel is your sister but growing up she was like an older sister to me to, and well I don't believe she's dead. what do you mean? I asked wondering what she was going on about. listen I don't think we should do this over the just met me at star grand park I have something to tell you she replied. wait what Sarah what is it? I asked. it's about Rachel... but I will explain when you get to the park she said hanging up. what the hell what does Sarah have to tell me about Rachel what does she know? I thought to myself. I better go star grand park its only a block away from my house and five blocks away from Sarah's I grabbed my backpack and put my phone in it and left down the stairs as I was making my way to the door I felt myself get pulled back by my arm. were the fuck do you think you're going a deep voice called out from behind me causing me to snap my head towards it. i glared and slapped his hands away from my arm what the hell sunny let me go I yelled moving around him to get away his grip getting tighter as I Struggled,causing my bag to almost fly off my arm. who the hell do you think you are yelling at me? don't make me put you in the closet he said with a smirk on his face. I glared at him but inside I felt a little anxious. the closet my dad use to put me in there when I was younger for the most dumbest reason like if I'd have a tantrum or if I'd make a mess or when I'd have a nightmare that was usually caused by him. yeah I had a fucked up childhood. can't you see I'm going to meet Sarah at the park asshole,do you won't come huh I harshly replied
he narrowed his eyes at me and pulled me closer. you better watch your mouth murderer he spat at me a furious look entering his eyes. I stared at him with a slight mixed of fear. what? I question,I'm not a murderer I responded HA like hell your not,Rachel should have never went missing butt it's all your fault you he snapped as he started moving closer to me I felt my stomach drop as I took a step back. you and your stupid argument with dad he spat.  she stormed out after you because she was concerned about you he continued which I don't really understand because who could ever love you and your angel face  he mocked in a high pitched girly voice. I couldn't say anything i was shocked do people really think I was the reason Rachel went missing? And why did he say murdered? Rachel's not dead Many thoughts were running in my mind as tears began welling up in my eyes the only thing I managed to get out was Rachel's not dead.  he chuckled your more stupid than I thought get fuck out of here dumbass he boomed pointed towards the door. i quickly made my way out  wanting to escape him as soon as possible running my way down the street. After running for a while trying to take my mind of what sunny had said, I almost didn't even notice I had ran a block and had made it to the park, I started to look around for Sarah when I noticed her behind a big tree pacing back and forth,I walked over towards a green bench at the park and sat down, HEY SARAH  I shouted waving her over she turned towards me and grabbed her backpack and ran over. Emmy she huffed oh thank gosh she said in relief, I've been waiting for you for a while i thought you weren't going to show she spoke as she took a seat on the other side of the bench why would would you think that? Oh will you know the fight she replied nervously oh I've already forgave you Sarah, you know I can't be mad for long I reassured giving her a small smile she smiled back in relief. she scooted forward and grabbed her backpack. know back to what I called you here for she began,pulling a blue folder out the front part of her bag. I scrunched my eyebrows in confusion,what's that I asked. this is the evidence that Rachel is still alive and here she responded slapping the folder on the table. wha? how? Was all I could manage to get out. well I've been doing my own investigation for awhile now and to be quite frank, I've been seeing her I thought I was dreaming she confessed, but then I actually spoke to her and she sounded near the same, she continued her eyes searching mine for a reaction. so I was right i thought to myself, it was her In that car with that boy. I was far into my I didn't hear Sarah calling my name. Emmy... EMMY  she shouted snapping me out of it, I believe Sarah I saw her too
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Emmys dairy
Rachel it's been two weeks since you left and I can't stop thinking about that night please be okay I don't think I can handle something bad happing to you mom and dad are already blaming me ever one has been acting weird lately not that that anything different Rachel they have been looking for you in rivers in lakes   At your friends house and know one can find you but I guess that's a good thing right it means your not dead right right i know it's stupid for me to be writing this down but it's the only way I can express how I feel I can't talk to anyone their either ignoring me or blaming me I'm not allowed to show how I feel in person or they will make fun of me Rachel please just come back please.
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Sorry I haven't posted in a while I've been have personal problems and I've been trying to work on my writers block but I'll  definitely be finishing this book this year I already have some ideas for this book