Her Faults

Chapter 23

I don't know how I got here but its too late to turm back. The light is turning. The footsteps. Too late to turn back. My skin is scrubbed red. Eyes bloodshot. If someone was looking for hell, they could look for me. My mind is thinking a million things. Rigid. Death. Murder. Life. Im sick. Im crying. Im puking. Arms wrap around me, the electricity back. I can hear. He's talking to me.
"Please.." I whisper. I just want to die.

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I don't know how long you're supposed to love a man who hurt you. I dont know when those electric feelings leave. Does anyone? My heart and mind hate each other. Who can win when neither is right. Joe's warm breath fans my hair, his arms holding me tighter than he ever has before. It took everything in him not to go beat Zach up. I don't want him beat up. Im supposed to marry this man, right? Im safe here. Safe in the arms of a man who also hurt me. The ring on my finger is no longer beautiful. No longer my fairytale. My heart throbs.
I stare at it. Im angry. Furious. I want Zach dead. Miserable. Anything but happy.
"I can still go kill him, if you let me." Joe grunts. I shake my head. Im embarrassed. I need to be held.
"Did you miss me? Mean to hurt me?" I whisper. This is the time to find out who meant to hurt me all this time, and which was a thoughtless game.
"I can never stop loving you, hoping you get better, and praying I can hold you like this. This wasnt an easy journey but one nonetheless."
Always good with words. Whether its posion or antidote, I drink it up. My feelings are all wild. The bats turn to butterflies.
A kiss.
He kissed my forehead.
"I dont know whats going to happen to us in the morning but Danielle, I want to make love to you tonight."
I look into those eyes, tears fallimg from mine, "Okay."