you were the cause
to my insomnia
why i stayed up
staring at the black fuzz
but i saw more
than that
i saw your face
and i believed
if my shaking hands could reach out far enough
i could have you
just one more time
my hallucination of you
slips through my fingers
i am going
through so much pain
thinking about you
and pausing
throughout my day
seeing memories
of your pure smile
and then i realize
i couldn't ever see that smile
ever again
because you're gone
suddenly
everything feels
so lifeless
and so pointless
without you
i miss you
i remember that night
you told me
you wanted me
the way
i've always wanted you
and you made me
so happy
and for the first time
i could sleep.
