if only i listened to those last four words
more carefully
because if i did
maybe i everyone would be
less angry at me
maybe everyone wouldn't
blame me for
you being gone
maybe i wouldn't blame myselfi soak myself in your sweater
your scent is so rough
yet so fragile
it tears me aparti haven't eaten
or slept in awhile
i haven't lived in awhilepeople say i need help
but the only thing i need
is you
you're the only thing that could fix me right nowi see your face in my dreams
but it isn't you
it's what my mind creates of you
all it knows
is that i'm sad
and i want to see you again
even if it's
a jumble of meaningless thingsi play a game with myself
everytime i say your name
in my head
i take a pilli'm going to die tonight.