Breaking The Wall Of His Insecurities ✔️

part : 17

"You didn't Anika. It's not your mistake I think Rudra mixed wine in our drinks that's why it happened. Come let's go in my room", he said to which Anika Nodded

They both sat on his bed. Anika started feeling dizzy so she held Shivaay's arm and looked down. Shivaay looked towards Anika who held his arms for the first time.

"Sleep Anika", he said but Anika shooked her head and placed her head on his shoulder. Shivaay's eyes popped in sockets as never any girl placed her head on his shoulder not even Priyanka. He looked towards Anika and then at door to confirm whether someone is there or not? After confirming that they are alone he looked towards Anika who was hypnotising him.

"Tomorrow this room will be my room as well. I am happy but scared as well", said Anika which altered him. He looked towards her whose eyes were now wide open. She sat straight and removed her hand from his shoulder. Shivaay don't know why he felt peace when she held his arms. Why her presence is affecting him? Why her touch is doing magic on her

"Why are you scared? I will not eat you", he asked and chuckled at his statement. Anika passed a smile and stand up

"Tomorrow we will lead a new life right. Married life. Even if we don't take our relationship further but for the world, we will be a married couple. I am scared because I don't know how to manage everything here. I have to leave my family and daily routine. I have to behave as a married woman. I will have many responsibilities", said Anika and walked towards his shelf where he placed many beautiful flower pots there.

"Marriage won't change many things I think. As for me, marriage is just a formality. This will not make us old. You can still enjoy your independence till you want. Responsibilities will be there but not much as even I will be there don't worry everything will be fine", he said and sighed in relief that her reasons didn't include his anger issues. Anika shooked her head without turning. Shivaay felt something fishy so he walked toward Anika to see her crying

"Why are you crying?", He asked. Anika noticed him and hurriedly wiped her tears but Shivaay understood that she is hiding something so he helped her to sit on the bed

"Now tell me what happened? Why are you scared of marriage?", He asked politely

"Because my mother left my father because she lost interest in my father what if even I did the same? I don't want to break marriage once after marrying you. She became someone's mistress but I hate that tag... I hate it.

I didn't tell this anyone not even Gauri. What if she came into our life again? She is alive ", chocked Anika with tears. Her voice showed pure anger and pain. Shivaay wiped her tears and held her face in his hand

"Shh everyone is not the same even if she came we will make sure her presence will not affect them ok?", He asked to which she nodded. Shivaay sat with Anika and held her hands in his hand

"At least she is alive na....my parents killed each other.. they were lovers who loved each other from college time... They married happily but after my birth, everything changed... Every damn thing... Their priorities are their love... Their care...their relation.

They used to fight in front of me... My father used to be... beat my mother... He once for... Forced my mother in front of me... I well disgust on myself that I was unable to stop him", he choked with tears Anika ruffled his hair to calm him but he lost his calm when he remembered those horrible days again. Anika pulled him on her chest to let him cry. She looked towards Shivaay who didn't wrap his hands around her waist because he don't know how to hug her. Anika holds his hands but stopped in the middle when he pulled his hand back to wipe his tears and continued

"Next day mom came towards me and asked for one promise from me. T..that I should never cheat someone and I should never force a girl. I should never use manly power. I... Nodded but after day her life became hell .... How can a lover do that? I don't want to do the same with you that is the reason I run away from you. I don't want to become the reason for your tears. He killed my mother physically and mentally as well ", he accused him with tears .. he started falling weak again when he remember his past. That past which he hate as he was unable to give a shoulder to his mother. He was unable to save her from his dad.

"S... Shivaay I think he never loved her don't cry... Please drink this", said Anika and passed a glass of water to him but he placed it back on the table. He looked towards Anika who was holding his arms and it didn't take a minute to realise that she initiated a hug which mean she is comfortable with him. He relaxed in her arms and continued

"He never otherwise which lover will force... He used to beat us without any mistake ...it became his daily routine to torture us so...I stopped crying. I stopped reacting. I started working hard just to forget daily fights..... My mom used to teach me every day that if she dies I should respect a girl. I should make her feel safe with her forever. I should never raise my hand upon a girl...

I regret why I never tried asking my father if he ever loved her? One day he came with his mistress just to show my mom that she was not perfect. That day they fought again like normal days but maybe it was enough of her suffering so she....killed my father and then .....", He stopped in the middle as his Tears started flowing again when he remembered that his parents killed each other in front of him which was like his worst nightmare. His voice broke when he tried telling her that his mother killed her as well leaving him and Priyanka alone in this world. That Priyanka was just 5 years old girl. An 11-year-old guy was unable to do anything rather than hide behind a door being scared. That was the last day of his innocence

Anika closed her eyes tightly to control her tears started rolling down when she recollected his past which is more dreadful than her. He is so weak that she never realised. Anika rubbed his back to calm him. Shivaay wrapped his hands on her back slowly without realising that he hugged her

When Anika felt his hands around her waist she shivered and looked towards Shivaay who was looking down. Anika rubbed his back again to calm him who is broken due to his past. She now understood well why he was scared to fall in love. Why he was scared to accept marriage?

"I miss you, mom. I hate the fact that you were weak", he said in low voice. Due to the drink, he started thinking that Anika is his mother and he hugged her more tightly. Anika looked down as she is not used to this many close moments but now he need her shoulder otherwise he may feel that he is alone again. For him, She gave him motherly warmth in this hug.

"Your mom was not weak Shivaay. Just think how much it is difficult to live with a person like your father but she did... Didn't she teach you good manners? Didn't she tell you how to respect girls? See in my eyes and tell do you think You would have respected me that much if your father taught you manners?", Asked Anika with tears. She wiped his tears and passed a smile towards Shivaay who looked towards Anika being numb. He can never think of it as if he started behaving like his father then she will hate him

"N ...no I hate him I can never become like him", he shouted and pushed Anika. He took 2 steps back but Anika came near him and held his hands

"You are not like him. Because you are the best. I trust you Shivaay I really do. I know you will never do the same things as your father did. I think your mother was not safe with him like I am with you", she said and came forward. This time Shivaay didn't step back and kept staring into her eyes. Anika wiped her tears without his notice and held his shoulder

"I know you are best. I never saw any person like you", said Anika to calm him down as somewhere he was hurt when she talked about his father. She regrets it now as she knows how much he hates his father. He saw too much in his childhood which took his innocence away. He didn't enjoy his childhood break her heart.

"I am?", he asked to which Anika nodded and helped him to sit on the bed. After making him comfortable she was about to go when he pulled her due to which she landed in his arms

"Sor..", he was about to maintain a distance but Anika stopped him
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Hii. Actually we all know how many stories were deleted so is it fine as past or I should remove Shakti forcing Pinky part? If you have any problem then tell me here only I will definitely change that but don't report it's a request.

Even I am a girl who hate these type of cases but thought to write it here to make his past more dark.

Don't bash as I will understand politely too . You just need to say. If no-one is having any problem then I will move story like this only.

I will update next chapter after a week for now I will end other stories ❤️