I'm All Yours

S E V E N

N A O M I

"Still yours?" I raised my eyebrows in retaliation as I stepped back, away from his bubble of hypnotism

I wasn't falling for that trap.

And I definitely wasn't having this conversation.

No hi, hello, how are you? A 'look at me' and ' I knew you were still mine' for fucks sake. What was I doing in this corridor with him?

Why did I end up here with him?

His grasp fell from my skin as I backed away again, only for him to step forward - but not enough for him to hold me.

He was arms length away.

He was so close, yet so far and had this look about him.

That look.

Like a lost puppy

Like he was almost intimidated by me, but still had that fire in him from years ago.

Dishevelled hair

Blushed cheeks from running after me

Loosely unbuttoned shirt since the day had come to night and he'd taken off his tie that I noticed he still hated wearing

And then there was that chain.

His chain

That goddamn chain was still hanging around his neck

Yes - it was a family chain, but it held so many memories for him, for us, for me.

I could hear everything we wanted to say to each other and yet neither of us had said a word

Our breathing was heavy, our chests pulling towards each other and yet neither dared to make any move back towards the wedding venue.

"Forgive me" he filled the silence

He looked like he wanted to say more and I was still trying to find the words to describe the pain scratching in the back of my throat as he stood there, asking for my forgiveness

I stayed silent, knowing damn well that man was not going to get a response out of me if that's all he had to say to me.

"Naomi, I just wanted to-"

I shook my head no warning him but he took no notice

"I'm sorr-"

"No!" I bursted out because my body retaliated against itself

No. No. No.

"No Theo you're not about to do this. Especially not now and especially not today. We're not doing this. We're not having this conversation" I told him clearly

"Not today of all days. Not at this wedding. Not on your terms-" I spelled it out for him - only to be interrupted by his voice

"Why- why not?" he interrupted me with a genuine question

I could tell with how soft his voice sounded and the way he looked hurt - genuinely hurt and confused as to why I was saying no.

He wanted to hash this out here? Right here, right now?

"Because-" I stumbled on my words, trying to think of why I shouldn't hear him out but in reality it was just my own anger that was causing me all this pain

It was my anger holding me back

But I didn't care

I was allowed to be angry. Upset and everything inbetween.