I feel like a little girl that's trapped in a void,
Full with nothing but darkness, pitch black darkness,No one to call, no one to hear me as I scream as loud as I can,
But no one heard me it's just me and the the darkness,
And it hurts it hurts a lot it hurts so much,
But what hurts more is that I don't wanna leave this void,
Because it's part of me now,
It's all I have, I'm now use to the nothingness, emptiness and sadness,
I don't want it to go,
I don't know how to stay without it,
And it's killing me but I don't want to be saved,
Am in so much pain but I don't know how to stop feeling this way,
I hate myself so much, I hate looking at myself,
I body shame myself telling me that am ugly that no one would ever love me,
I won't make it, that I can't do anything right,
The easiest part of my day is falling asleep at night,
But the hardest is waking up in the morning,
Not because I can't but because I don't want to live another day with pain in my heart and suscide ringing in my head.
I don't want to stay here anymore am so tired,
I create different scenarios in my head and in this scenarios I either extremely happy or extremely sad,
Happy because I imagine how nice it would be to have the things and life I want,
And sad because I also imagine how and why those things would be taken from me in a blink of an eye,
And am left all alone again fighting death from my own self,
But I know I won't fight for long,
Because I know sooner or later it's gonna win,
And I might just do it one day by drowning or stabing myself or slitting my wrist,
I don't know but what I know is am gonna be gone sooner or later,
And it's by my own hands,
Because I have to die for real so people will believe I'm actually dead.
ESTÁS LEYENDO
A Place For My Depression
PoesíaIt started out as poetry but just turned it into me talking and venting to be honest it's where I pour out all am feeling and it's still not enough so read and be engrossed in my weird world💔☠🙃