i don't remember you ever being a child
but you were only 15 when i was 6
tall and intimidating by first glance
but you were afraid
and vulnerable
as children often are
im forgetting what you smell like
your breath somehow always smelled the same
but its slipping me
it comes in waves
the things i remember
like when you saved me from drowning
after i watched you in awe while you dived from a cliff
and brushing your hair because you kept it long for me to style
the way you made sure i was comfortable around your friends
how you were the only person i really like to hug
because you are tall
and warm
and never let go first
you were tall
and warm
but you have let go
and i don't remember you ever being a child
i was always the one latched to your hand
hanging from your back
crying in your arms
i was always the child
and never can be again
