Forever His

Chapter 5.5 : Regret in Dimitri POV

'Master?' my pet asked reluctantly.

'Yes pet?'I answered while driving.

'Can we take off the collar when we're in the shopping mall?'

'Why?' I asked after glancing at me once even thought I already suspect him wanting to escape.

'Well... Because... I-I don't fell comfortable with... other watching me... When I h-have a c-collar...' he answered hesitantly while playing with his fingers.

'Does these people know you personally?' I put back my concentration on driving.

'No, but...'

'Then why care about it?' I cut him off a bit angry.

'B-but I...' he tried again shaking like he was going to cry.

'No. The answer is no.'I snapped and clenched my hands on the wheel.

Minutes later, I somehow calmed myself and started to think. The reason he would want his collar off would be for escape or was he really telling me the truth? Did he not really like people watching him? I sighed in confusion and glanced at my pet. He was looking at the window looking like in deep thought. Maybe he really didn't want to be with me... Even after what he said a year ago. How could he forget about something that important? Did he only say that to escape like last time?

I parked my car in an empty spot and took out the keys. I turned my head to see my loved one, but he seemed lost in his thoughts. He didn't even notice that we arrived.

'Look at me pet.' I said not wanting to wait anymore.

I saw him jump a little bit and hesitate. Why would he? He was the one who said that he was okay for us to do this role play. He hesitated some more, but finally turned his head on my side, but didn't make eye contact.

'In the eyes Aden...' I said while taking his face between two of my fingers.

His eyes immediately meet mine and I was now looking at the most beautiful eyes ever. However, something seemed off, the brightness I once saw in them wasn't here. It was clouded by something else. Fear? He seemed shocked, maybe it was because I called him by his name? It was true that I rarely called him by his name, but he didn't have to look so shocked. I continued to observe him until I notice that tears started to wet his magnificent eyes. I couldn't bear such thing if I wasn't controlling myself maybe I would also cry...

'Don't cry... Please don't. Tell me what's on your mind p-Aden.' I said in an intended soft tone while restraining myself for calling him pet.

'...'

'Please?' I begged.

I never begged, not even to my parents, but with my pet... No, Aden, I wouldn't mind doing it. I think it was the second time I did it. The first time was when I asked him to be my lover and submissive. He said yes to me without hesitation and had a big warm smile on his face so why? Why did he have such a sad face?

'You won't talk?'

'...'

'Fine.' I said releasing him and with my other hand I put it around his neck.

At first, he looked shocked and closed his eyes. I don't know what he had in mind now, but whatever it was I won't do it. I put my index finger on the collar and waited 5 seconds. Immediately after it unlocked and I took the collar off his neck. After a minute, I saw his muscles relax a bit and he hesitantly opened his eyes. He seemed surprised because he didn't stop looking at me and then back to the collar on my hand. Why would he be so surprised, he knew that I won't hurt him yet...

'I will let you without collar during the day and I suppose you wanted it off to escape. So, if you really want to then do it.' I said without looking while getting out of the car.

He seemed petrified because when I looked at him from the window of the passenger door, he was still back to me. I opened it and helped him to unlock his seatbelt. He still hadn't moved an inch. So, I took a step behind and waited for him to get out. He took a few minutes to realize that I was still waiting for him and he finally came out. I closed the door and started to walk without looking back. I was giving him the chance to escape. I was really hoping he won't do it, that he would remember what he said to me a year ago about our relationship. However when I returned to see if he was still there, I felt my heart break and I couldn't control the one tear that escaped my eye. Like I said, I let him escape, I was watching him run in the other way.

I finally snapped out of my trance and when I looked at the time on my watch, I realized that I was standing here for a good thirty minutes. Even now, I was still hoping that he would return to me, that he would tell me that he loved me like before...

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I was now back to my house and I was laying on my couch staring at the ceiling. I tried to sleep or to do anything else to make my mind forget about Aden. It was now clear to me, he don't want to be with me, the words he pronounced the other time was all lies. At first, I didn't want to believe it, so I didn't stop searching him and a year later I had finally found him. I was the happiest man in the world at that time... No, I'm starting to regret it... James was right, I should have listened to him and let go. I should have forgotten about him and find another submissive that was willing to be with me. So, why couldn't I imagine myself with someone else? Every time it's Aden that appear to my mind.

'Sir, there's someone who's here to see you.' said a maid.

'I don't want to see anyone.' I answered while dismissing her with a movement of my hand.

'But, sir he presents himself as sir Aden.' she still continued.

'Impossible.' I said not believing that it was really Aden downstairs.

'Shall I tell him that you're occupied?'

'No... Take him to my office.' I answered while getting up and walked toward my bathroom.

'As you please sir.' she said while bowing her head.

Why would Aden return after running away? But no matter how much I think, I don't remember another Aden that I knew. When I reached the bathroom, I washed my face and put my usual blank face on. Even if he was really Aden, I can't show how weak I was right now. I can't show anyone any weakness, never.

I went toward my office and saw the maid just coming out of it. I let her go first and then opened the door. I walked inside and only stopped when I was behind my desk.

'Aden...' I said without emotion.

'Dimitri, I have something serious to talk to you.' he answered not looking at me in the eyes.

'What is it?' I asked while taking a seat and told him to do the same with a movement of my hand.

'Tell me about my past. I want to know everything, don't hide anything.' he said while sitting on the chair in front of me.