The Boy That Lives In My House

Chapter 37

"Okay so I grew up in the city I didn't have a lot of friends I was always a little different but I got along with everyone I tried to fit in. My parent and I were always really close we did everything together"

"You've never mentioned your parents" he says

"Well last summer we all went camping my dad convinced me and my mom to go, he said it would be fun" I smile sadly "and on the way back home it was getting dark and a deer jump right out in front of us my dad didn't have time to do anything. I can still hear my mother screams" I feel a tear leave my eye

Luke squeezes my hand

"It was pretty bad we flipped over a couple of times and it took someone awhile to find us. I don't really remember what happened I blacked out in the car but I remember bits and pieces I remember hospital lights and them rushing me to the ER but that's it. My aunt actually told me I died on the operating table they had bring me back to life. But my parents they uh didn't make it" I start crying

"I'm so so sorry Jess" he hugs me

"That's not all. I don't know maybe because my parents died or I died for a couple seconds but I didn't feel like the same person anymore. I didn't care about fitting in I didn't want to talk to anyone I couldn't even smile, I just wanted to be alone. It got real bad and uh I" i start saying

"You can tell me" he says gently

"I started to go crazy I would talk to myself and I would throw tantrums and throw things at people and I started fights at school and just stare at the wall for hours. My aunt she got custody over me and she got really worried she thought that their was something seriously wrong with me and she didn't know what to do she says I became a different person and that she was kind of scared of me. She put me into a mental health hospital for almost a year where they gave me some meds and I had a therapist but I wouldn't ever talk or I would just say anything to make her happy so I could leave. After I got let out my aunt thought it was best if we moved out of the house and start fresh somewhere" I finish scared to look at him "I still catch her watching me making sure I'm not going crazy again"

"Your not crazy Jess" he tells me "I'm so sorry about what happened to you, you didn't deserve any of that"

"Sometimes I think I made you up" I tell him

"I think the same thing"

"Thank you"

"for what?" He asks confused

"For not judging me"

"None of that was your fault"

Luke POV

"Now me" I sigh not knowing where to start

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to" she says

"The year I died was 1993, I was 17 at the time" i starts saying

"Wow so you would be 40 now" she say

"Yeah" i says sadly

"You would properly be married and have kids"  she says quietly

"Maybe" i shrugs "I had a twin sister"

"You never told me that"

"We were close I was always really protective over her. Our parents died when we were 7 and we were shuffled in foster home after foster home. When we were 16 we went to live with this lady she was in her late 30s. She made everyone think she was the sweetest woman but she was a nightmare, she had everyone fooled" I sigh "we weren't her first foster kids and I'm sure we aren't the last. It started out okay we knew our place and we didn't get in the way but longer we were there the meaner she became, she would beat us or yell and say the meanest things imaginable to us and would lock us up in the basement and keep us there for a few days without feeding us"

"Why do you stay down there?" She asks me horrified

"Because I was already so used to staying down there it become home" I say without looking at her "my sister found out that she used to beat and torched other kids and a few actually died. After I found out I decided we needed to run away. But we never got the chance"

Jess grabs my hand and squeezes it "what happened?"

"She found out somehow and when I got home she was hitting my sister to the point she was bleeding. I push her off of my sister, she then grabbed a butcher knife that was in her apron and stabbed me in the stomach and then my sister,  I pushed her off of her and I went to grab my sister but she pushed me down the stairs and I broke my neck" I try to hold back tears, I can still remember everything so clearly

"O my god" Jess says tears leaving her eyes

"I don't know what happened to them after I died because they left the house, I don't even know if my sisters alive"

"What was your sisters name?" Jess asks me

"Lucy" I tell her

"That's a pretty name" she gives me a small smile "I'm sorry Luke about everything that you went through. I hate that you have to stay in this house"

"Maybe that's why we understand each other and we have a connection become we both been through things nobody should ever go through and we survived well kinda" I say trying to lighten the mood