Asalamualaikum wa Rehmatullahi wa Barakatuhu dear wattpadians!
So what's up with this book with a crazy title?
Just writing down my thoughts, ideas and views to share with the world. You'll get to have a look inside my mind and maybe get to know m...
"Give her a unique name they said. She'll stand out they said"
When I meet new people and they ask me my name, sometimes I don't want them to know my real name and want them to believe it's 'Ayesha' or something else.
It's not that I don't like my name. It's beautiful, cute, extremely unique(just like me 😉😂) and a word from Qur'an. So obviously I like my name, but it's the cruel judgment I've recieved from quite a number of people due to which I've suffered low self-esteem.
So this is what happens when people find out my name. First of all, when I've made sure that they know the spelling and pronunciation correctly enough of this certain word which starts with the letter E in English and ا in Arabic/Urdu (good luck guessing 👍😜), they get extremely excited for some mysterious reason and I can see it in their eyes!
Then they start asking some general questions and then some personal ones until they finally discover my personality. When they've done that, I see their excitement dying out.
It's like they expected me to have a celeb/rock n roll kinda personality just cuz I've got this unique name and now that they know the real me, they're disappointed?!
Well, sorry, not sorry!
It's not my mistake that I am quiet and shy around new people! That I don't take unnecessary risks, that I don't color oustide the lines, that I'm not all about fashion and social media.
I am who I am, your approval or in this case disapproval is not needed! Sheesh!
I've seen disappointment written all over their faces so many times and felt it in their tones. It explains how judgmental such people may be on the inside. You judge a person's personality merely based on their 'unique' name and then you act disappointed and distant just cuz they didn't fit into your definition of 'cool'. How narrow minded are you really?!
To add to all of this, some of them start to become distant also because of this 'too religious' personality of mine as they like to call it. Bruh, praying five times a day and reciting Qur'an ain't 'too religious', believe me.
People have made me feel that I don't deserve this name with the kind of personality I carry. People have made me feel that my personality is lacking a bit of spice and that I can upgrade to their standards of acceptance.
But guess what, I've found peace with my personality and I'm not looking for acceptance anymore. I'm okay with their disappointment covered faces and I don't care about their judgments.
On the bright side, I've met people who embrace me and my personality happily. They have an opinion of me through my knowledge and character. And they are with me to this day because they didn't judge people based on their personal standards. Alhamdulilah for such people who are still found on planet Earth.
My sweet little name has landed me in many troubles, some are very funny though. The one's out the there who have unique names will understand.
I've lost count of times I've had to spell my name for someone to pronounce correctly. 😫
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