Hello my Lovely bunnies. It has been a while again. I'm sorry bout that. It has been very interesting.
I'm all alone in this chat. I guess it makes sense I tend to fuck everything up. I felt this new feeling towards my boyfriend today. I have never felt it before. it confused me and really scared me. Everything was fine until after school then something scary happened and it brought up memories. Then he yelled at me to leave him alone. I wanted to run but I froze. I felt sick and dizzy and then I cried. I could tell he was mad at me. It is my fault. I made a joke I shouldn't have and it got taken out of context. I feel this pit in my stomach that I can't make go away and i'm screaming on the inside for it to go away and it wont. I'm crying as I type this cuz I absolutely hate this feeling. I feel sick and sad and confused and i don't know how to stop it. Someone please just stop it. I just want to scream and cry and have him hold me but I have to be strong for him.
