a teaspoon of honey

what's cookin, good lookin?

     hello, folks. it's been a hot minute since i last existed, and by that i mean more than a year. hi. detox is great. the world is very new. how are y'all doing?

     i realize most of you might have forgotten me and some of you have sent me messages that i still haven't replied to. forgive me, for both ending the previous sentence with a preposition as well as not responding to you sooner. life's been a mad hatter; and not always the good kind.

     gosh, i've forgotten how to write. it's mad. i've also just had a cup of coffee (what?) and i'm wearing a pair of shorts i never owned in the five years i'd been writing my book. but everything isn't new — i'm listening to ed sheeran's photograph and i've got a pinterest board full of nostalgia staring back at me. my hands are restless, too. i suppose that's a good thing.

     so in no particular order and as a travesty of chronological systems, i've compiled a list of things that have or will happen very soon in the short span of time i call my existence on earth. it's very surreal when i word it like that. i suddenly don't want to write, lol.

1) it's been more than a year since i finished trtbu!

for those of you that don't know what that is, it's a book i wrote. i don't remember the half of it. the other half makes me want to rewrite the whole thing. i love it like my own child. i've also shamelessly been reading it time and again but i haven't really gone back to it in over a year and that's a crazy amount of time, which leads me to...

2) i've forgotten how to english!

or any language, really. i've forgotten how to write, or string words into a sentence, if you may. this is both very upsetting but also unsurprising. the human brain is a muscle. you've got to work it every day or it gets rusty.

3) i'm almost done with med school!

ive got a couple of months before the big bad world gets to sink it's teeth into my tender flesh. it's terrible. i also will not answer your medical-related questions, no matter how rude you think i am. ask your local medical practitioner whether your running nose is as deadly as it seems.

4) im engaged!

to be married, of course. although, i am engaged in other affairs as well. this is the biggest surprise of all. if you know me, you'll know i don't marriage. yet here we are. i don't want to get into the nitty gritty bits, but the dude is nice. he's human, as far as i could tell. sense of humour is as terrible as mine. he's also an engineer and a childhood friend from kuwait that i happened to meet at a wedding. if you know why that's funny, you're the real mvp.

5) i took part in my first ever poetry slam!

and won, too! this is also very surreal. i've never won anything literary wise in my entire life. there was too much honesty in one room and i loved it. i didn't get booed off of stage. life is good.

     besides all of the above, life has also been not so kind. but that's just life. there have been bad books, illnesses, accidents, a death. i only say this because you must know — the universe isn't partial to any of us. not one. so don't be deceived by utopian lives, especially on social media. everyone's trudging through and the good thing about good news is that it isn't bad news. contentment is contagious. happiness is wonderful. tea still tastes good and friendship is the most beautiful thing. we're all human and most days, that's a wonderful thing.

     i hope you're all doing well :) i've missed all of you terribly. tell me about your lives, i'd love to hear from you. tell me about the weather. your city. the apple tree in your backyard (i've never had a backyard, you see.)

     most of all, i hope you're all good. 2018 is almost over and i hope it wasn't too bad. it was certainly memorable :) i also wish you every happiness in the world. and strawberry-flavoured yoghurt too.

     that's all for now. i take thy leave, peeps.

     peace out, 

     Chu ♥ 

(yes, i am mildly obsessed with naomi scott. sue meee)