A Series of Mondays (girlxgirl / wlw)

Monday, October 12th

PART III - HELEN

What had I done?

What did I elicit when I kissed Sofia?

Was a staged kiss terrible enough for Jamie to leave the room?

I was, once again, sure that I was in the right.

Jamie hat no right to walk out on me.

I had still been feeling high from the performance, but an uneasy feeling was taking over every inch of my body.

We had a quiet fight on the doorstep.

I said, "What's wrong, are you okay?" because maybe, he was just not feeling well.

He said, "Why did you kiss her in front of everybody else?"

I said, "Because we were acting out Romeo and Juliet."

He said, "I don't think you actually love me."

I said, "What makes you say that?"

He said nothing, just shrugged his shoulders.

I said nothing, just stared at him, thinking about what had gone wrong over the past few weeks, maybe months. All the exasperation that I built up.

I said, "I think, we should break up."

He said, "So I was right."

I said, "No, I do love you, I just can't be with you. You don't make me feel good."