Breathe
That's what I always tell myself. Just breathe.
Except it's not always that simple. I can't breathe when I want to scream. To let out all of my pain. To just be rid of it all.
But I can't. I won't. I will go through whatever it takes to get...
Getting of the plane I take in the air. Not as clean as Italy, but I'll take what I can get.
"Where to Don DeLuca?" My driver asks when I get in the back of the SUV
"The Ivanov's estate Thompson" I reply to him making him nod and start the car
1hour later
"Thank you Thompson. I'll be in touch for when I need you next" I tell him, getting out of the car
"My pleasure Mr.DeLuca. Have a good day" he replies and starts the car
"Go take your wife and sons out for breakfast. My treat" I say handing him two hundred in cash
"Mr.DeLuca I-" he starts
"Thompson, you deserve it. You're one of the people i trust most and you've trusted me through everything over the years" I cut him off
"So take it and go enjoy the day with your family" I add and he agrees hesitantly
"Thank you. But if you need anything" he says
"I'll call you. I know" I say and he nods
"Tell Bella we all miss her. Especially the boys" he says and now I nod
"Of course. Thank you Thompson, have a nice day" I tell him and he drives off
We had already driven through the gates so now I'm just walking to the front door.
I open the door, since I'm just used to doing it from the time I spent here when I was younger, and go inside. Long story about that though.
The lights are on so I know they're awake and I follow the sound of a guitar to the music room.
Upon hearing my footsteps, Andrei, Will, and Luka turn to me.
"How long has she been playing?" I ask since I already know it's Bella
"We got here about a minute ago. We don't know how long before that" Will responds
I walk far enough to where I'm right next to them and lean on the frame of the door to see her playing the guitar and singing softly.
You may be asking how she hasn't noticed us yet. Well sometimes when she let's all the pain in and remembers everything she gets in this state. She has to be doing something to distract herself and she blocks everything else out without even trying.
I've seen her like this several times, and every time I wish it doesn't happen again.
She finishes the song and closes her eyes. Tightening her hold on the guitar and leaning her head back on the way.
Will makes a move to go towards her but I stop her.
"She's not done. Give her a minute" I tell him quietly and he moves back hesitantly
About a minute later she opens her eyes. Tears are evident but she blinks them away. They then find their way to the piano.
She walks over to it after setting the guitar down and presses some of the keys.
After taking off her headphones, she starts to play a song I know very well.
A sad smile breaks on my face as she plays the song, knowing it's not just representing us.
She finishes the song and I can see the tears going down her face. But not even a minute later, she starts pulling at her hair.
"Dammit" I mutter before quickly making my way to her
"Bella, look at me" I say, putting my hands on her cheeks making her eyes find mine
"You're okay, you're with me" I continue trying to bring her back to the present, my fingertips rubbing the back of her neck
"You're not there, you're here. Those words aren't true" I tell her and she nods
"I'm here. With you" she says quietly
I rub my thumb over her cheek before pulling her into my chest and kissing her head.
Her breathing starts to get fast and I call her name but she doesn't answer.
I move her back to see her eyes starting to close.
"You'll be okay amore. I'm right here" I whisper in her ear before picking her up
I turn around only to see all of her brothers looking worried.
"She'll be fine" I tell them but they don't seem to believe it
"I'll make sure of it" I add and most of them nod
"What was that?" Will asks before Alex can
"Something I wish wouldn't happen to her" I reply before walking out of the room
"And let me guess, her business, not ours. We don't find out unless she wants us to?" Alex asks
"Pretty much. Her business is her business and until she says otherwise, it's gonna stay that way. You will most likely or eventually find out, but she's going to be the one to tell you" I respond
"Are you sure she's going to be okay E?" Luka asks
"I'll make sure of it" I reassure him and he nods
"Her room is on the third floor, left side, last door on the left" Andrei says and I nod before walking up the stairs and to her room
I got to her room fairly easily and I knew it was hers from the picture on her nightstand.
Once I close the door, I checked her temperature. It's a little high, but not bad.
I lay her in the bed and pull the covers over her.
"We'll get them back amore. No matter what" I tell her quietly before laying next to her
Sorry about the short chapter but apparently writers block is having it's turn on me. So, don't know when I'll update next, but I will.
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