Overprotective

一

4 years ago

Look at this boy sitting alone, maybe you should try to be his friend Hwang ?

As you say teacher.

Hi I'm Hyunjin !

I'm Jeongin.

Nice to meet you! Wanna be friends?

Yea, sure 

Great!

His smile was so pure and innocent. No one could see the devil inside him

Even I...

3 years ago

GET THE FUCK OUT OF THIS HOME

But dad! You can't kick me out, I'm your son!

I DIDN'T RAISE A FUCKING FAG. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU EVER AGAIN YOU ARE DISSAPOINTMENT!

...

Don't worry baby, your parents may understand you later

But he called me *sob* fag and *sob* disappointment, and that fucking hurt

Don't worry baby, you're always going to have me

Thank you hyung, I love you

And he was correct. I'm always going to have him, and he's always going to have me... to the point when I don't want it anymore. I don't want it, couse it's all painfull

There were never been love, just fake care and attention.

And pain, a lot of pain. But that's later

2 years ago

What the fuck Hwang ?

I. told. you. not. to. fucking. talk. to. him!

You didn't have to fucking hit me 

STOP SWEARING, YOU ANNOYING PIECE OF SHIT

I-I'm sorry hyung.

YOU FUCKING SHOULD BE. DON'T CRY WHEN I'M TALKING TO YOU, YOU FUCKUP. YOU'RE SO DISOBEING, NO WONDER YOUR PARENTS FUCKING HATES YOU. DON'T CLOSE THE DOOR WHEN I'M TALKING TO YOU MORON. YOU'LL FUCKING REGRET THIS NOW.

JUST LEAVE ME THE  FUCK ALONE, FOR ONCE 

I regretted this. Every day and every night after that fight... because things changed.

My once lovely, caring and soft hyung... changed into someone else 

He started drinking, being overprotective, abusive... but I believed that he'll change... He had to change...

but he never did.

and he never leaved me alone again.

1 year ago

 No, get off me hyung, you're fucking drunk.

I t-told you-u not to fu-ucking sweaar Innie-e, now daddy have to punish you.

W-what? No.. please you're drunk... please somebody help me!

shouting and pleading were never enough.

He had full control of me. I was the doll in his little theater.

...

Innie~ smileee, we are going to take a picture together now

I-I don't feel like this hyung

Just do what I say, and everything's going to be fine.

So I smiled. Every time he told me to smile, I was smiling. Because maybe he was hurting me, the part deep inside of me...  was still loving him after all

I knew he loved me too, at least that was what he was saying to me every time in school, like our life in home was perfect..

Sometimes even I started believing his lies... but this feeling always disappeared, when we were back home

When his real side was showing up.

Present

Innie wake up~ we've got school today baby

I'm coming hyung

I love you, you know this?

yes hyung. I love you too.