Short Stories

First love

There I stood in the cold rain, waiting for him, my first love. I've loved him for a long time now and recently he confessed that he loved me back. He told me to meet him at the bus stop in the evening, that he wanted to show me something. And because he was my first love, I trusted him. I gave him all my trust. I regretted it so much. I walked to the bus stop and waited and waited and still I didn't see him but I had faith. I knew he would come. He wouldn't leave me or humiliate me, right? Or so I thought. I didn't know what storm was coming my way soon.

Nightfall came and rain started to pour and I didn't have an umbrella. I'm sure I looked like a mess. My mascara ran down my face and my dress was soaked. I even dressed up pretty for him. I kneeled on the roadside and burst into tears as the lightning lit up the sky and the sound of thunder filled the silent neighborhood. After what I thought were a few hours, I got up and started to walk home, in the rain. Why would he do this to me? I thought as I turned the corner of an alley that was a shortcut towards my home. As I turned the corner and my heart burst into tiny little pieces. I felt like a piece of shit. The amount of sadness I felt at that moment was too overwhelming.

There he was. My first love. Kissing another girl. I felt so devasted, broken, and lost. I should have known. I'm ugly anyway so what did I expect? He'd settle for a girl like me? I rushed home, sadness overwhelming me, tears escaping my eyes like a pipe. I climbed to the top of my house. I just screamed in agony, pain, and sadness. I couldn't believe it. He betrayed me. I was so damn naive. I believed him. I trusted him. I just wanted this all to be a dream. I wanted to wake up. I couldn't be in this dreamland any longer. I pinched myself. Sadly this was reality. My painful reality.

I've been through pain all my life and he just added to it. He added a broken heart to my list of pain and suffering. I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted to end it all. I wish I could just end it all. I stood on the roof and looked at the sky as the rain stopped. I felt like dirt. I felt unworthy of anything.

I felt like I didn't deserve any love or nurture. I felt powerless against the world. I could hear the imaginary voices laughing in my head, telling me how much of a fool I've been. And I couldn't agree more. I was too naive. I too easily trusted people. Anybody could get to my head without even trying. That's how easy I was.

I tried to walk off the roof and accidentally fell off the roof to the ground to my death. I guess life isn't always fair huh? But it knows when you have had enough pain and sadness and suffering.

All I wanted was to feel loved by someone. And I never got even that. But I prayed that in my next life, I won't be this stupid.

I never wanted to be this stupid again.