Diana ( one direction fanfic)

Chapter 19

💜Diana's pov 💜
They wanted to know the reason why , how am I supposed to tell them ?, I'm too embarrassed, I have the feeling that I will disappoint them .

" cmon Diana .... like Liam said we're family " harry said
" I don't know how to tell you guys this , specially when there's boys in the room..." I started, they started to look at each other confused "ok ..... hum ... do you remember ivy my ex-best friend?" I asked my mom and brother, they nodded
" well she date or better dated , this guy , that happens to be the popular guy, he just slept around , and he started dating ivy , because she was beautiful, blue eyed blondie perfect body , and to him , she was like some award or something to show around to his friends , that his girlfriend is hot , with a good body and all that shit .... " I said " Harry , do you know Tyler Jones ? "
He started to think but then he looked at me shocked " the rich guy , and popular that tried to punch me once , because I had more girls looking for me than him , because I was famous ,that time that I went to pick you up at school?" He asked
" exactly, that one , he's the guy that I'm talking about.... "
" he was Ivy's boyfriend? Are you kidding?" He asked in shocked
I nodded " no I'm not kidding, but well , like I was saying , he slept around even being with ivy ... like but she didn't give a fuck , because she had all the attention, all the fame , and all that stuff , so he flirted a lot, with every girl that we saw " I said trying to delay the part that will explain everything
" yeah and ...? Why are you telling us this ?" Louis asked
" shut up and let me finish , am I done by chance ? No so shut up " I said sarcastically, Louis just looked at me shocked
" like I was saying , he wasn't happy just with one girl ... so the girl that was more  close to him I mean to ivy , was me , I was her best friend, so he started to flirt with me , but I just ignore, because I thought that he was , joking , I don't know making fun of me " I said nervous , shaking , and with a tear rolling down my cheek
" everyday was the same thing he flirted with me , and tried to touch me , but I hated him so I just pushed him away ... until one day ...." I said swallowing
They looked at me with their full attention wanted to hear what I had to said

I took a deep breath not looking at them because I was too embarrassed to ...
" so , one day I was coming out of the school with ivy , but i forgot my notebook on the library, so ivy just went home and I went alone grab my notebook, and the soccer team was having practice so they had to stay  at school . So I grabbed my notebook , I was , walking in the hall where the lockers were , to go home , when he and his friends stopped me ." I said now full crying
" let me get one thing straight, you were a difficult girl for him to get ... like , you ignored him, and pushed him away.... right ?" Zayn asked
" exactly, that so he decided to making it happen forcing me basically" I said , Harry was almost losing his head , but I continued " he and his group stopped me and he started flirting with me , while the others just laughed and made fun of me , i tried to ignore, pushing him away but he didn't move, I tried to ran away, but two of the group grabbed my arms, I tried everything I tried to fought back but they were stronger , I tried to kick them but another one grabbed my legs , they brought me to their changing rooms , the rest of the team were already out in the field so they were alone with me , so they took my clothes off, or ripped out , better saying , while two of them were grabbing my arms Tyler raped me there , he also grabbed my legs , and the others just were there watching , making fun of me and harassing my body , and they pointed every flaw that they saw on my body ." I said sobbing " he then threw my clothes , or what was left,at me, the only thing  that could cover my body was a jacket that i was wearing, he then left me alone in the hall , like , the only ones in school were me , and the soccer team, (they were in the soccer team ) that day , so I ran the faster I could , crying my eyes out, I called a taxi , and he left me home, then I ran to the shower , trying to clean myself and the feeling of being dirty, he took my virginity with him , so , that's why I'm afraid of the male figure, and that's why I started having depression, and classes at home , because I was afraid of him " I said
" wow , oh my god we- omg " Louis said shocked
" we're so sorry Diana" Liam said
" we would never hurt you , trust us " Niall said
My mom was crying, my sister too , Lou and Lottie already knew it but they were shocked because I told all the details .
My brother was shocked, with teeth and fists clenched, he looked like he wanted to kill someone
" there's more " I said
" oh Diana no please it's enough I don't wanna hear " my mom said
" you guys asked for it so you will hear it till the end " I said being a little bit aggressive
" so before I tried to end my life, me and ivy talked and she said that she was sorry for what she did to me I told you remember that we fought " I said looking at my mom and my brother , they nodded

" so she called me saying that she had been raped as well by him , and she was always asking if I was with you , like touring , because she wanted to visit us , but I guess Tyler was faster , harry remember when I had to go outside and you went to see if I was ok , and I looked really confused and scared ?"
He nodded
" well he was in front of me , he found me , so I thought that ending my life was the best option.... he wouldn't be able to attack me again .... so I locked myself and tried to kill myself , I'm so worthless that i couldn't even kill myself right ..... " I finished
They were all shocked, they were speechless, then my brother was the first one to move , coming to hug me tight, while I was crying on his chest
" oh Diana .... I don't even know what to say " Gemma said truly worried
" that's why you were always isolated, you  didn't talk basically just when I asked something..... and the clothes.... you liked the tiny dresses , and the tops , but all of the sudden you started dressing with your brother's clothes .... using baggy clothing .... that explains everything " my mom said connecting the pieces
" exactly " I said wiping my tears tears
" And Diana you're not worthless " Lou said trying to comfort me

" I know that you are afraid of boys , but can we try to hug you and if you don't feel comfortable you just push us away ok , we have to prove you that we would never hurt you ok .... " Liam said
I nodded, unsure , but let's try .

So first came Liam , then Louis , zayn , Niall , I felt comfortable, with them to be honest , I felt like they wouldn't hurt me , and that they were inoffensive.
" you know what guys ?"
" what? "
" you guys are like big teddy bears , cute and comfortable " I said smiling
They laughed
" but specially Liam he's like a big teddy bear , you are so cute"
I felt my brother jealousy scream
" calm down harry , you too " I said smiling
He smiled like a idiot , MY idiot .
" I need to know something, that I still couldn't overtake " he started, oh god I'm screwed up
" why did you called Niall instead of me or someone of our family when you woke up ?" He asked a little bit angry
I stayed quiet sitting down on the bed , I blushed so hard , I opened my eyes widely , I'm so screwed up , when Harry's jealous the better option is to run , just run the faster you can .
" I - I - I just , im being honest ok ..... I called him because-" I was cut off by Lottie" you love him , yeah continue" , that little bitch, MY little bitch, I could kill her right know , I'm kidding, but I blushed a lot " no .... " I said awkwardly
" because his voice was the voice that I most heard when I was in a coma " I said
I saw Niall smile, and brother look at me suspiciously, " don't look at me like that , it's the true " I said , he understood and just nodded

Then a doctor came to check me
" hum ... I see that you already woke up , that's amazing I will keep you here about 1-2 days just for observation ok ?"
I nodded