𝑴𝒚 𝒃𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒚 | Billie eilish

𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒘𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒚 𝒔𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏

  TW body shaming

billies POV

my insomnia is the worst fucking shit ever. It's 3:05am and I can't fucking sleep. I look to my left to see Mels sleeping peacefully. Wow. She's so pretty. And the tattoo she got today..well yesterday is hot as fuck.

I kept Turning not being able to fall asleep. I finally give up and turn on my phone.

"Holy fuck" I whispered as I realised the brightness was on the highest. Lowering down the brightness.

I pressed on Netflix and went to watch the office. Turning on the subtitles on so I could turn off the sound and not distract Mels from sleeping.

After a whole episode I checked the time seeing that it's only been 45 minutes.

3:45am

My favourite thing is going on Instagram and liking posts from my fans. This is amazing. Ocean eyes is blowing up and people are making fan account. Wow this is fucking amazing. I love my fans they are the best thing fucking ever and if I'm being honest they've made me so happy recently which I'm so grateful for. The only thing I want is to do the same to them.

As I pressed on the Instagram icon I went on the search symbol as I saw post of me my heart shattered

What the actual fuck.

My heart shattered.

What the actual fuck.

I turned off my phone as my vision blurred with the salty tears on my cheek.

Tears poured down my cheeks as my head thumped from all the crying

my head span as it felt like a year old headache

Mels POV

My eyes opened as I heard someone crying and sniffing beside me. It was still dark. Meaning it was somewhere between 1-4 am

As I reached and turn the lamp beside. I heard them crying non stopping. I turned around my brows furrowing from the view

It was billie. Her legs were hugging her chest and her head in between her legs. Crying historically.

"Baby" I whispered trying to get her attention but nothing

Not knowing what to do I wrapped my arms around her. Her crying now only getting louder.

"Let it all out baby. Let it all out" I whispered kissing the top of her head.

About 20 minutes later she was now laying down. She wasn't sleeping but looking at the wall in her own little world.

I stood up and went to get some water and some paracetamol seeing how she would furrow ur brows from the pain.

Walking back she was still in the same position.

"Hey baby I got you some water and paracetamol. Could you sit up for me please" as I said it she sat up not talking but taking the water and the paracetamol

after drinking it and putting it down she didn't say another one and didn't lay down. She kept staring into my eyes and she smiled but I saw how her eyes glistened. My face stayed in a frown bring her back into my arms.

"Can you tell me what happened baby" I rubbed her back as I spoke and her hands gripping onto my shirt.

After about 5 minutes I felt her hand let go of my shirt as she threw her phone at me violently.

"why" she whispered her brows furrowing

I unlocked her phone seeing she was on the search page on Instagram. But when I saw the photos my brows furrowed as clicked on pictures looking at them seeing that they calling her fat and telling her to loose the weight. My blood boiled seeing it wasn't just one pictures but it was many. Even some from her fam pages. What the actual fuck

I looked back up looking how Billies hands were wrapped around her stomach.

"Is it actually that bad" she looked at me and back at her stomach

"Bil-" as I was about to speak she interrupted

"Mels don't you know I'm no good for you. For fuck sake. This!" she pointed at her own stomach "is this what you really want" she looked back at me but kept talking "what the hell did I do?! why did I deserve this shit. Maybe we should just try to tell ourselves a good lie huh" she looked with her eyes filling up with tears

My eyes filled up with tears from how Billie was talking about herself. It hurt me so badly seeing her like this

"Billie just let me fucking talk!" I shouted getting her attention wiping my tears. Her face softened as she saw the tears. "This" I pointed at her stomach "is normal and fucking beautiful. You can't always control you body weight and lets face it you need the body weight to keep yourself healthy. Yesterday when I walked in I saw you in that outfit and let me tell you. My mouth dropped. You are so beautiful. Maybe you can't see it but that's the reason I fell for someone like you. You are so beautiful and I don't think you understand it. But please if there's any way I could fucking show you it please tell me. You are the hottest and prettiest and the best fucking girlfriend I know and your body is perfect." Tears we're now streaming down my face. I calmed my self down and looked at Billie

"I didn't mean to make you cry" Billie looked at me as her thumb went over my lip to pull it down and see the tattoo again.

She pulled me in and her hands went around the back of my head pulling me even closer. As it got more heated. She took her lips of mine and then took of my shirt.

Let's just say.

Angry sex is amazing....

I'm joking we didn't have sex yet. We weren't ready but! We had a hot making out session which lasted 30 minutes. That was hot as fuck.

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A/n HELLO!! I hope you've liked this chapter. Knowing this is a thing which actually happened broke me. Some people are so horrid.

Anyways

How was your day?